A short post here.
After months of finding stuff from all over the internet,I'm gonna put my plans into action.
I will give myself 3 months to notice any changes.
And I will stay committed within that period.
I shall not go out as much as I used to and if never is the best.

If this plan still fail, I'm gonna go on drugs.

I'm starting in Nov 2011. Ending January 2012.

Why the sudden urge?
I don't know. A new semester? A brand new start.

I will be MIA again.

I hope 3 months is enough.

Hee! :D

I will abandon music within this period.

Hi. I failed my audition.
I just feel sad.
I'm not sad that I fail it.
I just feel that well I have no talents anymore.
I used to think that singing was my only talent.
And it was proven that it wasn't.

So,this is what I will say.
Screw this life.
I will stop pursuing music.
I have no talent in it anyway.

To have talents is something you are born with
Not something that you pick up along your way in life.
That would be called hobbies.



I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.


I thought this was a dreamed I dream.

Thanks God. Just thanks. You gave me nothing in this life and you expect me to live it.

Hey readers.My holidays are ending soon.I feel inspired watching movies about high school life.It reminded me of when I was in Secondary School.

Those days are just too much.

All of us have grown up to be young matured adults.

There are times where we might break down.
There are times when we are frustrated because we couldn't meet our expectations.

All of this are what we experienced each day when we are given a test.

We may be far apart.
We may be in different institution.
But the memories we had always stay within us.
It's time to forget about the past.

And to begin a new future.
A future that we might see one another again.
And also a future that we might not.
Time have changed.

And we have to adapt to it.
Because time doesn't wait for us.

So I'm movin' on.
And I hope when we do meet outside,
We could be friends once more,no longer strangers.

"Pain makes us stronger. Tears makes us braver. Heartbreak makes us wiser. We should thank the past for a better future.."


Here we are now
Everything is about to change
We face tomorrow as we say goodbye to yesterday
A chapter ending but the stories only just begun
A page is turning for everyone

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go
Wherever I go

So excited I can barely even catch my breath
We have each other to lean on for the road ahead
This happy ending is the start of all our dreams
And I know your heart is with me

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

Its time to show the world we’ve got something to say
A song to sing out loud we’ll never fade away
I know I’ll miss you but we’ll meet again someday
We’ll never fade away

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

So I’m moving on
Letting go
Holding on to tomorrow
I’ve always got the memories while I’m finding out who I’m gonna be
We might be apart but I hope you always know
You’ll be with me wherever I go

Wherever, Wherever I go

Entitled "Wherever I go" By Miley Cyrus.

Hey readers. It has been a month or so since I last came here. Now is the holidays and it's been pretty busy in the past.

To become adaptable in a new environment takes time.The transition period is slow for me and I am still not fitting in yet.

I don't know why but I'm too distracted because of one particular event.
And so I've decided to just blog about it.It would just make that feeling go away.

I miss someone.
Someone special to me.
And I was a fool to let her go.
I thought that she would understand.
The pressure that I'm going through.
People's expectations.

Ever since that night,those words you said to me just keep playing back on my mind.
I have always tried my best not to hurt you.
I chose the right words to say to you.
And to you that three words that you were looking for was never there.

Neither of us have the perfect attitude.
But I didn't complain.
I accepted.

Yes.I don't know.
I never know things.
That is why I set out on this journey.
To find the Answers
For all my Questions.

As times passed,you became impatient.
And so we broke off our friendship.
You said It would haunt you.
But everyday it's haunting me too ever since that day.

I am losing my focus now.
But I shall stop.
I know that you are still hurt.
And I'm hurting deep down too.
I just don't show it.

I will just try my best to forget everything.
I don't expect you to forgive me either.

Well,Goodbye Girl.


Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!


That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,



Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!!
Never should've let you go
That should be me


Entitled "That should be me" By Justin Bieber ft Rascal Flatts.


I just feel that my heart is half-empty without you in my life.

Hi guys.Week 1 is finally over.I'm relieved.Although it's still hard to adapt to a new environment,it's been a vibrant week.

Like always,I study people.I don't stalk them.It's just by looking or overhearing the way they speak that tells me the person they truly are.

I'm not going to complain or anything.I find it interesting.There are some new things that I haven't seen before.

In a new environment,there are some that are an extrovert and some that are an introvert.During the first day,I was pretty much an introvert.Well,majority were.

It was only through the orientation that I've decided to be the opposite.Although there are times that I just keep to myself.

Everyone wants to be accepted for what they are.Everyone wants to find friends that are able to compromise with.
All of us came from a different background.
Different walk of life.
And the pains that we had to bear along the way.

And as usual,there are some that are just pretending to be someone they are not.
The harder you try to hide it,the more obvious it becomes.

We may be friends for the next three years but to be happy as a class,we really have to put in the effort to seek that happiness together.

It doesn't come instantaneously.There are some that differ in opinions when it comes to jokes.And there are some that differ in decision-making.

It could be that the new environment doesn't give us the opportunity to bond closer.

Sometimes we have to sacrifice ourselves from certain group for the happiness of others.

Hey readers.
Orientation was over.
We somehow bonded.
Some through games.
Lunch.
Or just casually talking.

I hope that now you will understand what I've been trying to tell you.
I hope that you would open your eyes.

I know that we hate to be at the losing end but sometimes we just have to for the sake of others.
To live in this life we have to make sacrifices and keep our promises.
There's no point trying to show a good side in front of other people and not keeping our promises.

Maybe this was god's choice for us to go on our separate way and seek the truth that we have not seen from 5 years of our secondary life.

No one loves to be alone in this world.
It's only temporary.
Only time will tell.

To Another Guy.
I don't want to say much about you.I can't really force you to forgive yourself for twisting your words against me.And it wasn't my fault that you messed it up...

School will be officially starting next week.And it's going to be busy.It's like doing a job during office hour everyday.

It could be a lesson for us to learn.And to change into someone better.Someone more understanding,compassionate with others and being optimistic about life.

It was stupid for me to do soul-searching for a month because it just doesn't have a time limit.

This is a new milestone for us.It's time to mold our characters into someone more positive.Someone who keeps their promises.

We should never give up.
Push ourselves till the end.
Stand up when we fall.
Even if we are at our limits.
Giving up is never an option.

Winners never quit and quitters never wins.

May you find triumph in life.

You may be hurt.
You may cry.
You may whine.
You said you wanted to stop all of this.
Because you can't bear the pain.

And I asked.
What is love?
Is it something that you are suppose to try?
Or is it something where two party are attracted to one another naturally?

You may have your friends.
They may sympathize with you.

And let me confess a little something about you.
You may hate me.
You may despise me.
All I can say is the truth will make you realize something about yourself.

You asked whether you are annoying to me.
The Answer is No.

Sometimes you misunderstood whatever I'm trying to say.
It may be hard.
You may pity me.

Because I am struggling with my life.
With no happiness.
No Laughter.

And you asked if I had loved you once.
Yes. I had. In the past.

In the past,many things that you did inspired me but all of that change.You may not notice it but over the years you are changing yourself.

You used to be active.
You were enthusiastically motivated.
You spoke up for people rights.
You were never sarcastic.
You knew your limits.

Let me elaborate the last part. You know when to back down when people are angry.You know when to apologize when you were in the wrong. And when people are down,you would cheer them up.

Sarcasm was my part.

And all of it just dies.

We have been friends for quite sometime.
We have gone through the hardship together.
We have seen the joy in life together.

But it all comes to an end.

We may have started on the wrong foot.
Maybe you don't really know how to confess it in person.
Was there really ways of affection you shown to me in person?

Why are you rushing to fall in love?
We have many years ahead of us.

I have never complain for what you have become,I accepted it.
And yet you can't accept for what I am.
Just because I don't have the perfect attitude.

It seems that we can no longer be friends.

How many more friends will I lose?
If I continue to speak the truth..
It's all in the past now.

These reasons may be trivial but each and every one of it will change a person.

Farewell.