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Its 2PM.
Jun Su, NichKhun, Taec Yeon, Woo Young, Jun Ho, Chan Sung.

Saturday, April 30, 2011 @ 12:13 PM
♥ Acceptance I
Hi guys.Week 1 is finally over.I'm relieved.Although it's still hard to adapt to a new environment,it's been a vibrant week.

Like always,I study people.I don't stalk them.It's just by looking or overhearing the way they speak that tells me the person they truly are.

I'm not going to complain or anything.I find it interesting.There are some new things that I haven't seen before.

In a new environment,there are some that are an extrovert and some that are an introvert.During the first day,I was pretty much an introvert.Well,majority were.

It was only through the orientation that I've decided to be the opposite.Although there are times that I just keep to myself.

Everyone wants to be accepted for what they are.Everyone wants to find friends that are able to compromise with.
All of us came from a different background.
Different walk of life.
And the pains that we had to bear along the way.

And as usual,there are some that are just pretending to be someone they are not.
The harder you try to hide it,the more obvious it becomes.

We may be friends for the next three years but to be happy as a class,we really have to put in the effort to seek that happiness together.

It doesn't come instantaneously.There are some that differ in opinions when it comes to jokes.And there are some that differ in decision-making.

It could be that the new environment doesn't give us the opportunity to bond closer.

Sometimes we have to sacrifice ourselves from certain group for the happiness of others.

Friday, April 22, 2011 @ 11:16 AM
♥ You haven't seen the last of me
Hey readers.
Orientation was over.
We somehow bonded.
Some through games.
Lunch.
Or just casually talking.

I hope that now you will understand what I've been trying to tell you.
I hope that you would open your eyes.

I know that we hate to be at the losing end but sometimes we just have to for the sake of others.
To live in this life we have to make sacrifices and keep our promises.
There's no point trying to show a good side in front of other people and not keeping our promises.

Maybe this was god's choice for us to go on our separate way and seek the truth that we have not seen from 5 years of our secondary life.

No one loves to be alone in this world.
It's only temporary.
Only time will tell.

To Another Guy.
I don't want to say much about you.I can't really force you to forgive yourself for twisting your words against me.And it wasn't my fault that you messed it up...

School will be officially starting next week.And it's going to be busy.It's like doing a job during office hour everyday.

It could be a lesson for us to learn.And to change into someone better.Someone more understanding,compassionate with others and being optimistic about life.

It was stupid for me to do soul-searching for a month because it just doesn't have a time limit.

This is a new milestone for us.It's time to mold our characters into someone more positive.Someone who keeps their promises.

We should never give up.
Push ourselves till the end.
Stand up when we fall.
Even if we are at our limits.
Giving up is never an option.

Winners never quit and quitters never wins.

May you find triumph in life.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011 @ 1:24 PM
♥ Confession
You may be hurt.
You may cry.
You may whine.
You said you wanted to stop all of this.
Because you can't bear the pain.

And I asked.
What is love?
Is it something that you are suppose to try?
Or is it something where two party are attracted to one another naturally?

You may have your friends.
They may sympathize with you.

And let me confess a little something about you.
You may hate me.
You may despise me.
All I can say is the truth will make you realize something about yourself.

You asked whether you are annoying to me.
The Answer is No.

Sometimes you misunderstood whatever I'm trying to say.
It may be hard.
You may pity me.

Because I am struggling with my life.
With no happiness.
No Laughter.

And you asked if I had loved you once.
Yes. I had. In the past.

In the past,many things that you did inspired me but all of that change.You may not notice it but over the years you are changing yourself.

You used to be active.
You were enthusiastically motivated.
You spoke up for people rights.
You were never sarcastic.
You knew your limits.

Let me elaborate the last part. You know when to back down when people are angry.You know when to apologize when you were in the wrong. And when people are down,you would cheer them up.

Sarcasm was my part.

And all of it just dies.

We have been friends for quite sometime.
We have gone through the hardship together.
We have seen the joy in life together.

But it all comes to an end.

We may have started on the wrong foot.
Maybe you don't really know how to confess it in person.
Was there really ways of affection you shown to me in person?

Why are you rushing to fall in love?
We have many years ahead of us.

I have never complain for what you have become,I accepted it.
And yet you can't accept for what I am.
Just because I don't have the perfect attitude.

It seems that we can no longer be friends.

How many more friends will I lose?
If I continue to speak the truth..
It's all in the past now.

These reasons may be trivial but each and every one of it will change a person.

Farewell.

Friday, April 1, 2011 @ 10:39 PM
♥ Frustration
This isn't a good sign

I am having depressions.
Anxiety.
My vision is getting worse everyday.

And one day,I can no longer see.

I will try to be happy.
I will try to share my happiness.
I will try to forget those bitterness moments.

I will try my best to be useful
I will try to be less irritating.
I will try to be restrictive of my actions.
I will try to smile.
I will try to sacrifice my pride.

This life is no longer a game to me.
It's a purpose I was given.

Some may say I am exaggerating.
Maybe I am.
But you don't see the ugly truth.
The truth behind how life revolves.
How society works.
And how to fit in one.
And the people in it.

Don't you know how cruel this is.
To live in this life.
Why don't you try to be understanding for once?
Put yourself in my shoe for once.

To live a life.
By having people staring at you.
As if you are from some other planet.
Sometimes I'm even worse than you.
But you don't see it.
Because you didn't spare a thought.

I don't blame you.
All I want is a little sympathy.

I may smile.
But does that show happiness?
No.
It's like a needle in a haystack.
That's what happiness means to me.

The probability of finding it is so low.
That sometimes I even want to give up.

Maybe I should.
I'm sick of putting my life with this kind of...

And it will only be a matter of time.

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Name: Tirmuzi;
Nickname: Takuya;
Birthday: 29 September;
Horoscope: Libra
Location: Singapore;
School: SGSS Pri(1998-2004)Sec(2005-2010).
Temasek Polytechnic
MSN: takuyakanbara29@hotmail.com

I'm someone who is
Cheerful;
Easy-Going;
Caring;
Loyal;
Gullible;
Understanding;
Supportive
Warm-Hearted
Friendly
Emo at times
Forgiving
Humble

Likes
Milkshakes;
Cotton Candy
VitaSoy;
To Be Alone;
Day-Dreaming;
Relaxing;
Listening to Music
Fruits
SoyaBean
Dutch Lady Milk

Wishes
Remember my Childhood;
Dreams

To do:
Grow Fat [Priority]

Die

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