Hello readers.It's been a while.In three weeks,I will be starting school.A new environment and a new classmates.

I tried my hardest to patch up every broken relationship but it still didn't work.
All of us wants to end school with a high note.
And after a few outings,I have noticed changes in them.

Some had forgotten how the friendship was forged.
Some had forgotten their goals for the year.
Some are just testing patience.

Who would expect.The School Life that we once had together is now behind us.And to look forward in a new institution.

I know that this would lead to nowhere.
Thus,I have stop believing that it would work out.

It seems you have no idea who I am.
There are moments to laugh.
And there are moments to be serious.
And you have seriously changed.

If I was fated to have friends,so be it.
If not,let it be.

Sometimes meeting them at first seems easy but letting go is tough.Well,that only happens if they are really close.

I have forgiven everyone's wrongdoings as I'm tired to give the silent treatment to them.
The past is the past.
Don't rake it up.

I will look forward to the future.
Although,I will walk it alone.
I wish everyone the best for their future.

Will people get what they deserved?
For their wrongdoings?
Retribution?
Karma?

It may not be now.
A few years later.

If I am a joke to you,I would say goodbye first.

I just want to forget the past.
And everyone in it.
I wish I can erase it all for once.
Living a life full of misery.
Can really tears you apart.


The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Entitled "Candles"

This game has come to an end.

It was fun while it lasted.

But Now It's time to blow the Candles Out.

Game Over.

I meant every word of it.

Hey readers.I don't really feel happy.Neither am I angry.I just feel like I want to cry.Sometimes when you listen to music,you can be moved by the words and that's what happen to me.

It could be I felt the meaning of the song.
And I was able to relate it to myself.

I used to tell myself that it was okay.
Everything's going to be alright.
Someone will protect you.
But it's all a lie.

And who am I kidding.
I keep thinking that this is a fairytale
And I will have a happy ending.

The fact that I'm trying to avoid is.
Nobody just wants me.
Because I'm way too imperfect.

It's painful to admit your flaws.
Mistakes do make us stronger.
Sometimes when you keep repeating the same mistake,we will just get tired.
And feel like giving up.

Even misunderstandings.I tried my best to phrase my words but in the end it will lead to misunderstandings.And everything will turn sour.
Wouldn't the person that made the misunderstandings feel guilty?
And I just want to fix it.


What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Entitled "Get It Right"
Every night without fail I will ask god,

Why did you make me like this?
To hold others' burden
To be mocked
To be push around
To be stared at
To just be a substitute

And in the end I will beg,
Just take me away please
I'm tired of this life
Let me sleep forever

I wish that god could be reasonable with me

Even if tomorrow I will wake up,I will feel life doesn't mean anything to me anymore.

Day by Day, I will feel bitter.
And I tried to fit in.
I really did.
I even tried mingling around.
But I will not understand happiness.

I may laugh.
I may smile widely.
But it is just not what I truly felt.

Am I really comfortable with my own skin?
Perhaps not.
Why?
People can't accept for what I look.

Yes.
They are biased.
And no,I care less about looks.
But the society is degrading.

Mockery.
Discrimination.
Unwanted Attention.

How can I live in peace.

Even if I was not at fault,the blame will be push to me.
And even if I utter a word,you started to hate me.

My dreams are unachievable.
No matter how you look at it.

And it's all because I look different?

Is my sight that disgusting for me to talk with you? :'(

Sometimes I feel those that are accepted in the society are just not grateful.

I would rather die earlier than to continue living in this world.

How many times will it take for me to just get it right?! :'(


I don't need your sympathies because it won't change me for what I am.

Rejected.
Outcast.

I think I've done enough.
It's time to end it.
Once and For All.

Listen Closely.
I meant every word of it.

Hey readers.All of you might have heard about the news on Japan.It's a misfortune.
An earthquake of 8.9 magnitude of the Richter scale hit Japan causing tsunamis once more.Within radius,the tsunami began to overcome with its massive force.

Sendai,Japan was the first to hit as it was near to the harbor.There are several videos that people took even if their life was at stake.

And today,there was a nuclear meltdown.

So what's a meltdown?

A meltdown is overheating of the nuclear core causing the core to melt which allow radiation of nuclear activity into the atmosphere.

It's like one after the other.

And why should we worry?
Because many lives are lost.
Homeless.
Lost their jobs.
Their effort.
A family.

And yet they are still in danger.Why?
Seismic activity would last a few days or maybe one-two weeks the most.
And there are some that might feel tremors.
Due to these activity,tsunami would still be a threat to the people on land.
And the aftermath is just the beginning.
It would take few days or weeks before the water is back to the sea.

Communication lines are cut.
Injuries status unknown
Medical personnel are restricted.
And casualties would receive treatment not even on time.
There are some that are missing.
Some trapped.
Some could be safe and some could not.
There are others that would feel mentally stressed about the whole situation.
Many lives are at stake.
Shortages of food.
The lack of proper sanitation.


Ohh Ohh Ohh .. and I pray
I just cant sleep tonight.
Knowing that things aint right.
Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go.
Children are crying.
Soldiers are dying
Some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And its starting today.

Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey


Haven`t tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day

I close my eyes and pray
For the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today.
I just cant sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and I pray

I pray ..

I close my eyes and pray ..

Entitled "Pray"

What can we do at the very least..
A prayer.
Even though we are all of different religions,our faith is the one that allow us to pray with confidence to each of our own gods'.

There are many relief efforts going on.
Some would give monetary to them to provide efficient aid to them.
Some would give their assistance to find the missing people.
No one would want to lose their loved one.Not even us.

And we should be thankful with what we have here.
We should be grateful.
And should always help those that are in need.
If we are self-centered,no one would help us in the future.
It may not be much but doing something is better than doing nothing.

There comes a time
When we head a certain call
When the world must come together as one
There are people dying
And it's time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all

We can't go on
Pretending day by day
That someone, somewhere will soon make a change
We are all a part of
God's great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Send them your heart
So they'll know that someone cares
And their lives will be stronger and free
As God has shown us by turning stone to bread
So we all must lend a helping hand

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

When you're down and out
There seems no hope at all
But if you just believe
There's no way we can fall
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change will only come
When we stand together as one

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Entitled "We are the World"


Pray for their safety.
Pray for their reunion.
Pray for Japan in any possible way.

Hey readers.Today's post is about "Pursuance".It's something that we are pursuing in order to achieve it overtime.There are many things that we are pursuing in life.

Studies.
Love.
Ourselves.
Music.
Life.
Family.
Happiness.
Truth.

All of this depends on the individual that wanting to pursue the things they wanted.And all takes time.Sometimes sacrifices.

Sacrifices have to be made in order to pursue it alone.This journey is a journey that even your friends or those that said they would accompanied you would know that's the answer because it is us who venture it and only us will know what we have been searching all this while.

Some think they would understand it.
Some don't even bother.
Some would try to compromise it.
Some are just too stubborn.

To all those mates of mine,in a month time. I do hope that our communication would still exist because I went on this journey alone and had stopped contacting you guys.

In order to achieve something we have to concentrate right?

I might be able to see the answers that I've been searching for.
And maybe I won't

This journey takes time.Maybe a month won't do. A year? A Decade? Several Decades?

During this journey,I swear that I will be a better person.

There are some that asked.

What is it you are looking for?
And why must it be now?

First. I have no idea. It could be my happiness. Maybe my soul-mate. Or some other things.
Second. If not now then when? I don't want to live in a confused life forever.

Maybe Singapore isn't the best place to do soul-searching.It's bustling everywhere.And there are nowhere that I can go. Everywhere, there are shopping malls,houses.

I guess I just have to keep finding even if I were to aged and not find it.My life would then meant nothing regrettably.


I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Til the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Oh Oh... I don't know...Oh Oh....Oh Oh....

Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too

So...

(Guitar solo)

I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I, I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too...
I'm getting older too...

So, take this love, take it down
Oh if you climb a mountain and you turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring you down, down

And If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe... The landslide will bring you do

Entitled "Landslide" by the Glee Cast.

Hey readers.Time for another post since I was inspired once more by several songs and of course the message that I hope you guys would learn at the end of this post.

Ever since the previous post I made,I am starting to forget all about it.The problem.The cause.
There's no point to always stay angry at someone just because they fail to deliver it to you.They are humans too.

Humans make mistakes.
We are all imperfect.
We can't demand
We ask.
And they compromise.

All of us have flaw.Everyone.Including those that are perfect in our eyes.It's just that we don't get to know these "perfect" people.

Even those that say themselves are perfect are never perfect.
They could have a rotten personality.A Cheater.Liar.Drama Queen.
They could have a scar or a birthmark.
A distorted body parts like the nose or lips or ears.
They could have a finger that is longer than the rest.

All of these imperfect makes us perfect.Our own originality.Uniqueness.

Nobody's perfect but all of us still accept them for who we are and what we will be.

Here I am, here I stand, I took a picture of my hand
Bet you can tell its not manicured
Here I am, half a man, I'm not a doctor, I'm not tan
And I never helped the score
I drive too fast
The team picked me last
I break the rules and like it
My body curves
I forget the words
I missed the serve and lost it

All my flawz to see.
But you still love,
Love me.

Here I am face down, sometimes I smile or frown
But it depends on the time of the day
Here I go off the road, I spend cash on my clothes
When I still have bills to pay
My skin isn't clear
Haven't spoke in a year
Cuz I still have fear I'm tryin' to overcome
My truths aren't right
My jeans are too tight
When I pick a fight I turn to run

All my flawz to see.
But you still love,
Love me.

You still love me
Even when I sin
I don't fit in
Cuz I've been burned
When I waited my turn
Don't act my age
I Don't want to
Call it a phase,
Call me taboo
Won't do as I'm told to believe
I wear my heart on my sleeve


Entitled "Flawz" By Caitlin Crosby.

There are still some that can't see this.It's either they are just stupidly blinded or immature.

It's true that all of us come in different shapes and sizes and we will never have the authority to make them feel inferior of themselves.

Be realistic for once.Some of us are matured.And even if you lied,we won't be stupid enough to take your word for it.

Mocking a person of what they are is mocking god's creation.
Have they ever asked to be born this way? No,they don't.
So what gives you the right to say about their flaw?

Sometimes this show how degraded the society has become.
Although we are all of the same kind.
Human.
Just of different sexuality.
And yet they mocked against them.

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss “no way it’s all good”
It didn’t slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I’m still around…

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

You’re so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You’re fuckin’ perfect to me
The world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my genes, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less then, fuckin’ perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing you’re fuckin’ perfect, to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect
Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing you’re fucking perfect to me

Entitled "Fucking perfect" by Pink.

There are some that is willing to argue.
Maybe their personality of mockery towards others is their flaw.
Maybe so.And it defines for what they are.A rotten mouth.

These type of people will never learn true happiness if they begin to contradict every single thing that's around them.

Just because it wasn't to their liking.
But hey!
Who the hell are they?

God?
King?
Queen?

None of the above.No matter how high their statuses like the boss of a company.They are still human.

I do hope that the society would stop focusing on the economy and reflect on themselves to improve one's attitude.

With a bad attitude,the economy would never strive.

Everyday is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain,
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness,
The pieces gone,
Left the puzzle undone,
Ain't that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, no, no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down, oh, no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
(yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
(and everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always, always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

'Cause we are beautiful,
No matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down...
Mmm, today


Entitled "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera.

And to those that knows their flaw,embrace it.

Your flaw is what defines you.

Never mock others of their flaw.

Hey guys.It's nearly a month since the last post on "Valentine".

Let me update what's been going on with my life a little bit.

I've finished my assignment few days ago.
I finished two games in two days.
I was out of contact in the beginning of March.
School will be starting next month

And I am searching for something.

This could be the reason for my absence.It depends how you look at it.And one more thing.In the month of February,some people are just plain nasty.

Well,they really pisses me off and then just stay away from me.

I will be a little mean in this post.But who are the one that's mean? Me? or Them?


To Friend A
I hope that you could really kick that old habit of yours.I ain't stupid.If you want to amaze me with your vocabulary,do it right.

I'm a very tolerable and patient person.But when you pissed me off,you decided to cut my contact

Not everyone can tolerate your character.I won't blame you for cutting our line of communication.It's your choice.

To Friend B
It's been a while since we met.You have changed.Apparently,I am no longer worthy of you.Not even a friend.

Oh well.Who cares.It seems you are also cutting off that line.

To Friend C
I sympathize with you.However,I do hope you don't change.Nowadays you seemed to be out of contact.No longer within my reach.

To Friend D
You seemed like a competitor to me once.Now,you are also out of contact.

To Friend E
It's true you always dream of things beyond your reach.Literally.I'm not mocking you or anything.Sometimes we need to grab those that are within our reach first before thinking ahead.

It sounded like me.Anyway,you are not the person I used to know.Sometimes you are there,sometimes you are not.

To Friend F
I Love You. :) But you are coupled.

To Friend G
Don't be too concern of what people say about you.It's been great knowing you for a while but when we are out of the zone,you are barely contactable.

To Friend H
Don't misunderstand things. >.<


Your subtleties, they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all the wants and all the needs
All I don't want to need at all

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight

It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight

Tonight, inside
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight


Entitled "It Ends Tonight" by The All American Rejects.