Ho ho ho.Merry Christmas to my readers.This is the first time I'm posting such post as I never did before in my previous year.I would like to wish everyone Merry Christmas or in Spanish,Feliz Navidad.I recently heard it from a song on youtube.

Youtube.A source of entertainment with a few click of a button and those characters on the search box.Honestly,today would be a long post as I've decided to merge two topics into one entry.I would divide them with pictures.Look at those Christmas tree above.People decorate it with their heart to make the tree stand out.

So,what does Christmas means to me?

It's a day where people get together and have a decent meal with their loved one.There are some that exchange presents.There are some that exchange greetings.It's also a day for forgiveness.And of course for christian it would mark another significant milestone.

I'm not going to type anything serious in this topic because it's christmas!

For the first song,we'll have "Last Christmas" by Glee.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying 'I love you', I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kiss me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl on a cover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year
Maybe this year I'll give it to someone special

Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year
It won't be anything like, anything like

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


First time,I heard this song was on Glee.That show does bring back some old tunes into our times.They did change some parts of the song like the beat,tempo etc.

Celebrating Christmas is to be with your loved one.It would be lonely to be celebrating it alone.It's a season where we get together and enjoy till our hearts content! We might not get the one we loved to celebrate it with.Instead we should give it to someone who needs that love and warmth of a person.

No matter who we are or where we come from.Holidays are meant to be celebrated by everyone regardless of their race,religion and Social-economic background and of course even the sick.

I do pray that everyone that is sick would be well as I've heard that a flu is flowing around in Singapore.I'm down with one and am on the recovery process.My voice is horrid!

Back to the point.There are people that believe in Santa Claus.It's not wrong to believe in it because we all believe in something or someone to keep us motivated.Speaking of which, I saw a mascot of Santa Claus yesterday.I didn't get a snapshot of it as I was laughing my heads off.It came to us and shook hands with my parents and little sister.I would say it would be about 8 to 9 feet tall but it was adorable.We were buying grocery.Who knew Santa Claus would be there too!


Merry Christmas guys!



Well.Another topic.Love.

What does it feel to be in love?
How would you know if that person is the right one for you?

I've seen plenty of people around me that shows such affection.From parents to friends and even kids.There are many type of love.

One sided.A person that had a crush towards another person but that person didn't notice or reject immediately.There are reasons to why such rejection occurs.They did not have the same feelings or they feel that there are other things in life that is of a priority to them than relationship.

Sometimes to confess your love to that person.It would take a lot of courage and in the end when you are rejected you would feel desperate like as if your world is crumbling down.

The worst case is.When you are outside with your friends,you see your crush with another person.You may say it might be a misunderstanding but what if they did things that are within the limits of a couple relationship.

Two sided love.This kind of love exist almost everywhere.They are happy.And would commit their life with each other.There's nothing to talk about.They quarrel every now and then so it's usual for humans to quarrel.We ain't perfect anyway.

Love Triangle.This type of love is the most interesting one.There are three people that involved with two falling with the same person.They would fight and quarrel just to impress.I find this pathetic.Well, that's me.There are some that would share between it equally.That's good I guess.Without competition,it really depend on luck then.

Short-Term Love.People would toy with other people's feelings.They would say they accept to be in a relationship with them but over time they would get tired of it and just break up.It is either they want another person as they felt that it wasn't really suited for them or they grew tired of spending on things in a relationship.

Distant Love.This love is quite romantic.They fell in love through the internet.One from another country while the other is from another region.That's quite cool.This love is hard to keep track because of the different timezone and the things that we do might just clash.

Love at First Sight.Do you guys believe in this? Anyway,it's falling in love just by glancing to another person.It's somewhat related to a one sided love and if they accept it would become a two sided love.Cute? I guess.

No Love.Well,it just say everything.You don't really feel attracted to anyone.I don't think that's wrong as the time is not right yet.

Well that sums up what I know about love.Love exist in many different forms.Do take note that we do not have the right to judge people relationship due to our personal feelings and emotions or even hatred towards them.This is a free world.As in,they can love as they like.We do not have the right to control them.

There are some that you don't usually see everyday.Those type of love are unique.Remember the entry about Fireworks? We are unique in our own way and do not have the right to bring it down.

My opinion.I feel that I belong in no love.I am the type to not fall in love with people easily and vice versa.Oh well.I would just wait for the right time.Even if I don't get a soul-mate.It doesn't matter.Love could never be rush and sometimes it just doesn't make sense.

Next Song entitled "When the Door Closes" by B2ST.It was recently released.It's a nice song.Do support them.

마지막 인살 내게 건네기 전에
majimak insal naege gŏnnegi jŏne
Before saying your last farewell to me

아주 잠깐만 멈춰서 날 보며 웃어줘
aju jamkkanman mŏmchwosŏ nal bomyŏ usŏjwo
Please stop for just a moment and look at me while smiling

잠시나마 나에게 빛을 준 네게
jamshinama na’ege bichŭl jun nege
Stay for just a bit, you who had given light to me

끝이라도 눈물 따윈 보이기 싫어서 나
kkŭtirado nunmul ttawin boigi shirhŏsŏ na
Even if it’s the end, I don’t want to show you my tears, so you

(너에게 웃음 지으며) 고맙다고 행복한 추억 내게 만들어줘서
(nŏege usŭm jiŭmyŏ) gomabdago haengbokhan chuŏk naege mandŭrŏjwosŏ
(While putting on a smile for you) I say thank you, for making these happy memories

(어색한 미소를 비추며) 널 이렇게 보내지만
(ŏsaekhan misorŭl bichumyŏ) nŏl irŏhke bonaejiman
(Shining with an awkward smile) I’m sending you away like this but

[Chorus]
이 문이 닫히면 네 모습이 사라지면
i muni dathimyŏn ne mosŭbi sarajimyŏn
When this door closes, when the image of you disappears

하루를 눈물로 살겠지만 너와의 추억 때문에 혼자 남아
harurŭl nunmullo salgetjiman nŏwaye chuŏk ttaemune honja nama
I’ll probably spend the day in tears, because of the memories with you, I’m left alone

행복을 더 바랄게
haengbogŭl dŏ baralge
I wish that you’ll be happier

나 지금 이 손을 놓치면
na jigŭm i sonŭl nohchimyŏn
When I let go of this hand now

이제 또 웃을 일 없겠지만 다른 사람의 품에서
ije tto usŭl il ŏbtgetjiman darŭn sarame pumesŏ
I’ll no longer have any reason to smile but when I see you smiling
courtesy of TopLyrics.Info
웃고 있을 널 보며 나 웃어 볼게
utgo issŭl nŏl bomyŏ na usŏ bolge
in another’s embrace, I’ll try to smile
[/Chorus]

그 사람과의 길던 인연의 끝에
gŭ saramgwaye gildŏn inyŏne kkŭte
At the end of your long relationship with him

서서 기다리고 있던 나란 걸 알아줘
sŏsŏ gidarigo itdŏn naran gŏl arajwo
Please know that it’ll be me standing there, waiting

잠시라도 그 사람 생각이 날 때
jamshirado gŭ saram saenggaki nal ttae
Even if you ever get flashes of memories with him

그때보다 웃게 할 널 약속해보지만 너
gŭttaeboda utge hal nŏl yaksokhaebojiman nŏ
I’ll try to promise that I’ll make you smile even more than those times but you

(나에게 눈물 보이며) 힘들다고 그 사람 곁에 이별만 남겨줘서
(na’ege nunmul boimyŏ) himdŭldago gŭ saram gyŏte ibyŏlman namgyŏjwosŏ
(If you show me your tears) And say that it’s difficult, because there is only farewell by that person’s side

(멍하니 네 손 잡으며) 널 이렇게 붙잡지만
(mŏnghani ne son jabŭmyŏ) nŏl irŏhke butjapjiman
(While I hold onto your hand with a blank expression) I’m holding onto you like this but

[Chorus]

마음이 약해져서 다시 널 잡기 전에
maŭmi yakhaejyŏsŏ dashi nŏl japgi jŏne
My heart has become weak, before I can be with you again

눈물 흘릴 날 보지 않게 돌아보지 말고가
nunmul hŭllil nal boji anhge doraboji malgoga
So that you won’t see me while my tears come out, please don’t look back and just go

[Chorus]

이 문이 닫히면
i muni dathimyŏn
When this door closes

Sometimes I do feel like giving up everything.It's hard to let go isn't it.

To those people that have no one to celebrate Christmas with.This song is for you.

ROMANIZATION

ima doko ko de dare ka ga
tsurai kimochi de
hitori kiri
nemurenu yoru wo
sugoshite iru no nara
sono kokoro ni
hikari sasu made
frisau de ireru kara
ano melody and harmony and love

dare ka no tame ni
bokura wa koko de
chiisana koto shika dekinai keredo
ichibyou dake demo sekai jou ni
namida tomete
egao ni natte kureru no naro

aishi tsuzukeru yo
aruki tsuzukeru yo
afureru omoi ga
todoku to shinjite
umareru mae kara
bokura wa deatte
yume wo sagashite ta
sonna ni ga suru yo

kirameku oto ni
susumere ru toki
kanashisugite
wasurete irareta
melody and harmony
itsumo soba ni ite
boku ni yuuki to kibou wo kureta ne

kimi ni arigatou
zutto arigatou
kagayaku omoi wo
kimi no okuri mono
kase aeru koto
mitsume aeru koto
hitori janai koto
oshiete kureta yo

kasane au ai wo
melody ni nosete
tsutaete yukitai
itsumo itsumade mo

kono basho kara
aishi tsuzukeru yo
aruki tsuzukeru yo
afureru omoi ga
todoku to shinjite

kemi ni arigatou
zutto arigatou
kagayau omoi wo
kimi no okuri mono

kasane au ai wo
melody ni nosete
tsutaete yukitai
itsumo itsumade mo

lalala~~~

ima doko ka de dare ka ga
tsurai kimochi de
hitori kiri
nemurenu yoru wo
sugoshite iru no nara
sono kokoro ni
hikari sasu made
furisou de ireru kara
like a melody and harmony in love

TRANSLATION

right now, somewhere, someone
is in pain
is feeling lonely
can’t sleep at night
is going through all of these
until the light shines through to that heart
because if only it can touch
that melody and harmony and love

for someone’s sake
we are here
although we can only achieve small things
even just for 1 second
we still want to stop all the tears in this world
and turn them all into smiles

keep loving, and keep walking
we’ve been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings
even before we were born
we knew that we would meet
and that we would be searching for out dreams together

with the sparkling sound
time will move forward
you’ll forget all the sorrow
melody and harmony
you are always by my side
giving me courage and hope
thank you
thank you forever
these glittering feelings
are you gifts
you taught me how to support each other
to watch over each other
and that I’m not lonely

the love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
i want to continue conveying that love
forever and ever

starting from here

keep loving, and keep walking
we’ve been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings

thank you
thank you forever
these glittering feelings
are you gifts
the love that was plied up
is riding on the melody
i want to continue conveying that love
forever and ever

right now, somewhere, someone
is in pain
is feeling lonely
can’t sleep at night
is going through all of these
until the light shines through to that heart
because if only it can touch
like a melody and harmony in love

This song entitled "Melody and Harmony" by TVXQ members of Jaejung and Yu Chun.We always need someone to guide us through along the way and hoping to find the light that we are searching.It may be a struggle but sometimes it's worth the shot.

Well that's it guys.

Signing Off.

Merry Christmas.

Hey Readers.All over the internet I've searched,I found some really good topics to blog about but I will put that on hold for a later date.Today's entry isn't going to be "Christmas/Love" but rather for another cause.It won't be that chain status thing on facebook but just here,on this blog.

It feels kind of depressing to really blog about this.Anyway,let me move on.

Out there,in this big world.There are people still fighting for the survival of their lives.To some of us,it may not be a concern as it doesn't affect our life but we should spare a thought for them.We are here living so healthily and yet we don't sympathize with them for a bit.

When you lose someone that had taken care of you or someone that you shared secrets with,it just feels depressing .We mourn and cried.And in the end we move on with our life,accepting the fate.

Upon hearing stories of a particular person,I wanna wish them to stay strong and never give up because we would never want to lose someone that we loved.I hope that everyone here that read by this post would lend their prayers for him.It isn't important to whom I may referring but as long your prayer is there,I know it would definitely reach to him.

Two Songs will be posted on the sidebar and credits goes to them.Below are the lyrics:

I've been kick around
and let down
been told a lie
and lied about
it wasn't until I found
you right here in front of me

I had to be broken so I could see
the angel in front of me
and I'll never take for granted
another day

And I'm Gonna Fight
To keep you mine
Before I let you walk out of my life
I'll die
If you're not by my side
I'm Gonna fight
For the life
I've been looking for..for so much time
I'm gonna fight
I'm gonna fight

I've been used a day
then thrown away
been told to leave
then asked to stay
I was so confused until
the day that I met you

I had to be broken so I could see
the angel in front of me
and I'll never take for granted
another day

And I'm Gonna Fight
To keep you mine
Before I let you walk out of my life
I'll die
If you're not by my side
I'm Gonna fight
For the life
I've been looking for..for so much time
I'm gonna fight

And I'm gonna fight
For every moment
that I wasted being broken
you deserve it,every minute
and I wanna give it
all to you so take my hand
and follow me home
cuz you know

I'm gonna fight...
I'm gonna fight
Not gonna give up

And I'm Gonna Fight
To keep you mine
Before I let you walk out of my life
I'll die
If you're not by my side
I'm Gonna fight
For the life
I've been looking for..for so much time
I'm gonna fight
I'm gonna fight

Repeat x2


This song was originally composed by J Rice, a youtuber.He's a musician and this song somehow reach through me.Alright and the next would be an old favorite.


Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)


Entitled "Save you" by Simple Plan.The music video shows people fighting for cancer.

On track,I hope that people would spare a thought for these people.I'm not asking for donations to support such causes.Sometimes,money couldn't buy everything.All they want is for someone to accompany them in their time of need.We may argue that these disease might get on to us but aren't we being over-protective?

These opportunities are hard to come by.For people to support and show concern is hard as we have other things in our life.I don't disagree to that either but stop your work and put yourself in their shoes for once.What are they feeling.

We humans always want to have this and that.Nothing can satisfy our mind.Eventually we become fickle-minded on our choices.We may have the luxurious things or better-well-of things in life but all these people just wanted one wish and that is to recover.

Spare a thought.
Lend a Hand.
Voice out your prayers.

Hello readers.I've been absent since the last post.I wasn't feeling well for that period.Now I'm up on my feet,breathing fresh air as always!

I kind of miss my class.It's fun to watch people joking around among themselves or even with the teachers.It just makes the environment more lively.All good things do come to an end.We may have part our ways a month ago but those memories are quite something! There are some of us that doesn't really like to be involve with the class and there are some that are just victims to it but in the end all of us would just laugh our heads off! That's truly are memories that could never be forgotten.

On track, today post is about "Firework". It relates to a song which I would post the lyrics below.As all of you might have known,today was the release of the GCE 'N' level result.It was the same as us in the previous year.We stood quietly waiting impatiently for the result to be announce.Anticipating our result anxiously,with butterfly in our stomach.

Those are the feelings that we get every time when we are waiting for something that we longed for.It just feel nostalgic to be reminded of today as we were once sitting on that very hall.Although, our result of the GCE 'O' Level result would be release next month.The thoughts of it are kind of scary.With us experiencing it all over again.Who knows we might get cold feet! Brrr...

The Lyrics for the Song "Firework" by Katy Perry.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon


Honestly,I have no idea that this song existed until I watch a parody of it.It was a good parody and so I've decided to hear the official music.

With the relation to today's result,there are many people that tried to work hard for the things they have always wanted or dream of.And our parents have always wanted the best for us.We may still be childish and neglect their advice as we find it was a nuisance to our life.It's only when we have step into the working world we began to realize that those very words they uttered were true in the end.We end up regretting for our guilty actions towards them and yet they have already pass on to the next life..

We may fail in life.We might.We do not know what is in stores for us.When we fail,a door is close.When that door is close,there are other doors that are open for us to choose from.

An opportunity that comes by may be swept by the wind,there is always one that is on the sole of our shoes,waiting for us to pick it up and try it.

I have a friend.He wanted 14 point for his GCE 'O' Level last year but in the end he didn't get what he wanted.He may be depressed about it as his choice that he wanted was unavailable due to the cut off point.He decided to go to another course which he thought he could try.In the end,he enjoyed it with his classmates in the polytechnic and is now living his life to the fullest.

These are moments that we have to realize that results are the one that determines our future.If we did not take it seriously,we wouldn't have better opportunity to pursue our dreams.

Everyone has dreams.You and me.Some dream to be a pilot,lawyer,doctor,CEO.We are all unique in our own way and we decide how we want to live our life.No one should ever have the right to show or lead how we live our life.

It's the same.We also don't have the right to insult other people for what they are because that is just plain wrong.Seriously,it's despicable when people insult other people well-being just because they are perfect in their own eyes.

God gives them for a reason.And we have no right to insult god's creation.All we can do is instead of insulting,we can try to lend a hand.No one is perfect even if it was their sexual orientation.

In conclusion,giving up is letting go of your dream.Every failure is a stepping stone to success.We may fail at first but we should never give up.And also live the life that we want.Well,legally of course.

Your firework would ignite!

Next Post " Love/Christmas "

Hello readers.As you guys might have noticed,people have changed their profile picture in facebook/twitter to a cartoon picture from their childhood.This is a campaign to show awareness on child abuses.This has been going on for quite a while of course not in the eye of the public.

So let's talk about it in a little detail.Potential abuser would usually be parents and such reasons are:

Monetary issues
Loss of conscience
Experience
Mentality issues

When people face with setbacks that involved money,they tend to get frustrated.And to get rid of that frustration.They would let it go with the first thing on their side when they usually come home.And that would be their children.All toddlers are happy to see their parents coming home and would be by the doorstep to hug them.Sometimes,people often forget what they are doing towards someone or how much pain they could endure.A kid wouldn't last as long as a teenager would.By torture means that is.

When people get drunk or rather high,they lose their conscience which determines whether their actions are right or wrong from the beginning.Usually,innocent people would get involved just to face these people that are drunk.It's rare to see people that are drunk to behave such a way.Unless they are face with either monetary or mentality issues.

There are also certain cases that children become a victim.It is when they themselves experience it from their parents at first and as a way of taming children had been inculcated in their everyday lives.This is always an issue that hardly surface or rather unclear to see from hindsight as we do not know their background of their earlier generations.

People that suffer from mental issues would not realize what they are doing.It is as if their conscience is not even there at first or it was there but they couldn't control their nerve to their brain.It really depends whether they are to be blame or not.Many questions would come up from this.

If they had such problems,why have a child?
Just to find a whole as a family?
Wouldn't that be a burden to their children becoming victim?
Would they be able to cure from their disease?
What if they got sick of the medicine?
And got hay-wired instead?

It does depends.To have a child is a responsibility that as parents must really uphold.To be able to meet their needs and give them food and shelter.They are also humans and shouldn't be abuse by potential abuser just because they are under-whelming against their predators.

Parents are one of the potential abuser to these children.Although,there are also other groups that lead to such cases.Bullies,Siblings or maybe a stranger.

These term "bullies" never fail to surface from my entry.We might not see it but it's happening in today's society.This analogy which I assume most of you have seen it on television advertisements.

By having a straw it's easily bent
By combining that straw,it would requires a certain amount of effort to bend it.

Imagine these bullies are that group of straws combined against one straw which is the victim.Who would lose out? It would definitely be that single straw.

A children childhood is very important to each individual because from there we would grow up and what we can be from there.If that childhood is disrupted or destroyed,there would not be happiness among them and they would be pessimistic.This in return would destroy their very own future ahead of them just because they had face such setbacks when they were small.

Today's society is pretty much corrupted.People often either pick on those that are smaller than them or ganged up with the others to confront against one single person.They might be still immature or you would argue that they are having fun.

Have you ever thought if people had stop such situation from getting worse,how many more lives would be save? Or rather their future?

Children that never voice out their concerns to their parents, afraid of burdening them, are almost certain to be victims of child abuse or being empathize by their teachers.At that rate,they wouldn't make any friends.I thought the same way,ending up with only my best friend that had lasted for 8 years till today.

Some would even argue that they was somehow involve just to look bold in front of the others.Everything in this world has a clear definition.

A crime.It's something that is done by a human and what they did was wrong.
Being bullied.It's something that is done by a human which was wrong to confront against another student that is either weaker or smaller in term of height.

Whatever it is,a crime is a crime and when you bully is also consider a wrongful act.This is despicable.

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

[Repeat Chorus]

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

[Repeat Chorus]

This song entitled "Concrete Angel" by Martina Mcbridge pretty much says it all in the song.Apparently,I keep on relating my past to such campaigns.The reason is everywhere I came across on website or when I'm outside,it would just relate it to my root past.Well,you can't blame me can you?

I was a victim too without the knowledge of anyone or rather they did see it but simply ignore it.They crushed my only childhood and I'm trying my best to carry on with my life.It's unpleasant to be reminded when I told that I would forget it.Let me be a little clear.Teacher did saw but they merely ignored it.

The reason was,they did not have a sense of conscience to determine that those actions were wrong.If they intervene,it would have save partial of that childhood or even a life.

Ironic isn't it.

I didn't die and the reason is my conscience came to me just as I was prepared to take my final breath.I nearly slit my wrist with a knife.I always stood by the railings,waiting to jump down.I always took beyond the recommended dosage when I'm sick or even when I'm not.Imagining to lose my balance on a chair,with a rope around my neck.

At such a young age,I was expose to this type of things while others are building up their childhood.This was what I think of.It was lucid in my mind.I cried every night without the knowledge of my family.Negative things are hard to forget don't they but I don't hold grudges though.

In conclusion,life's tough.I may have experience such abuses and such awareness is crucial so that other children would not fall into victims of child abuse.I'm not dwelling over the past,I'm over it actually.I'm just using it as a reference or speaking from experience.

Hello readers.It's been the third day since I blogged continuously.There are so many things on my mind but I hope I would clear it by today.Blogging does makes me forget all of this bitterness.I do not wish to remember them but from time to time look at them and learn something from it.

This past is something that we shouldn't let go off.It is the past and we should only be concern about the future but we must realize our mistakes from the past in order not to make the same one in the future.That is how we learn.People who became complacent would never understand this.They will forget it and just keep pushing it even if it were beyond the limits.In the end,we would filled with regrets even when we are old.

I would like to apologize for any mishap that I had caused for this year.And I do hope that I'm forgiven.It's true that I will stop bugging all of you and we are going our separate paths.It's time to say goodbye.I had cause bitterness in everyone's life.A person like me shouldn't be worth remembering.I was selfish.

I admit to all my mistakes and do what I typed in my previous post.It's always hard to say goodbye when you meet a friend.It's easy to not even meet at first.Our mind would began to fickle and we tend to become inquisitive.Well,I'm gonna let it go.All of it.

Hanguel:

WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U

알아 이미 끝났다는 걸 잘 알아 다 알아
알아 놓아줘야 하는 걸 잘 알아 다 알아

(BUT WITHOUT YOU) 사랑은 끝나지 않는 걸
(BUT WITHOUT YOU) 눈물도 멈추지 않는 걸
(SO WITHOUT YOU YOU) 너 없이도
(WITHOUT YOU YOU) 혼자서도 사랑을 지켜갈 거야

(WITH OR WITHOUT U) 너는 날 살아가게 해주는 그 이유 It's you
(WITH OR WITHOUT U) 내 모든 아픔을 다 고쳐주는 치유 It's you

IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!
IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!

가라 사랑도 뭣도 아닌 집착아 다 가라 다 가라
그만 너를 그리워 하는 내 이 맘 다 그만 다 그만

WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U

IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!
IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!

WITH OR WITHOUT YOU
WITH OR WITHOUT YOU
WITH OR WITHOUT YOU
WITH OR WITHOUT YOU

Romanization:

A ra i mi keth nat da nen gol jal a ra da a ra
A ra noh a jwo ya ha nen gol jal a ra da a ra

(BUT WITHOUT YOU) sa rang en keth na ji an nen gol
(BUT WITHOUT YOU) Nun mul do mom chu ji an nen gol
(SO WITHOUT YOU YOU) No ob si do
(WITHOUT YOU YOU) hon ja so do sa rang el ji kyo gal go ya

(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
No nen nal sa ra ga gé hae ju nen ge i yu IT'S YOU
(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
Nae mo den a phe mel da go chyo ju nen chi yu IT'S YOU

IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!
IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!

Ga ra sa rang do mwot do a nin jib cha ga da ga ra da ga ra
Ge man no rel ge ri wo ha nen nae i mam da ge man da ge man

(BUT WITHOUT YOU) sa rang en keth na ji an nen gol
(BUT WITHOUT YOU) Nun mul do mom chu ji an nen gol
(SO WITHOUT YOU YOU) No ob si do
(WITHOUT YOU YOU) hon ja so do sa rang el ji kyo gal go ya

(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
No nen nal sa ra ga gé hae ju nen ge i yu IT'S YOU
(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
Nae mo den a phe mel da go chyo ju nen chi yu IT'S YOU

WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U
WITH OR WITHOUT U

(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
No nen nal sa ra ga gé hae ju nen ge i yu IT'S YOU
(WITH OR WITHOUT U)
Nae mo den a phe mel da go chyo ju nen chi yu IT'S YOU

IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!
IT'S YOU U U U U! BE WITH YOU U U U U!

English:

With or without you With or without you
With or without you With or without you

I know, it's already over, I know well, I know it all
I know, I need to let go, I know well, I know it all

(But without you) The love doesn't stop
(But without you) The tears don't stop either
(So without you) Even without you
(Without you you) I'll protect love by myself

(With or without you) You're the reason that makes me live It's you
(With or without you) You're the cure that fixes all my hurts It's you

It's you u u u u! Be with you u u u u!
It's you u u u u! Be with you u u u u!

Go, obsession that's not even love, go away, go away
Stop, my heart that misses you, just stop, just stop
(But without you) The love doesn't stop
(But without you) The tears don't stop either
(So without you) Even without you
(Without you you) I'll protect love by myself

(With or without you) You're the reason that makes me live It's you
(With or without you) You're the cure that fixes all my hurts It's you

With or without you
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you

(With or without you) You're the reason that makes me live It's you
(With or without you) You're the cure that fixes all my hurts It's you

It's you u u u u! Be with you u u u u!
It's you u u u u! Be with you u u u u!

-With or Without You by 2am-

Hanguel:

왜 자꾸만 이러니 왜 말을 못 알아 듣니
왜 자꾸만 내 곁을 기웃거리니
너와 난 이미 끝난단 말 더는 보기 싫단 말
얼마나 더 해야만 알아듣겠니

너의 부모님 말씀 왜 듣지를 않니
그 사람이 왜 어디가 또 어떻니
그냥 나를 떠나면 돼 힘든 일도 아니야
이제 니가 살던 세상으로 가

* 널 사랑한단 말 이젠 못해 기다려달란 말 더는 못해
널 아프게만 한 바보 같은 나야 못난 남자일 뿐이야

가라고 떠나라고 되지 않는 거짓말을 해봐도
싫다고 안된다고 자꾸 자꾸 울어대는 너라서
미련이 내 맘을 잡아 내 곁에 널 두고 싶어
하지만 더는 안돼 널 위해 끝내야만 해

아주 어릴 때부터 나만 알던 너라서
못해본 일이 너무 많았잖아
갖고 싶은 것도 갖고 좋은 옷도 입어야지
이제 니가 살던 세상으로 가

* 반복

어떻게 내가 너를 잊겠니 내 인생의 빛나던 태양을
이렇게 나 너를 보내버리면 어떻게 살지도 모르는데

* 반복

Romanization:

Wae jakkuman ireoni wae mareul mot ara deudni
Wae jakkuman nae gyeoteul giutgeorini
Neowa nan imi kkeutnandan mal deoneun bogi sildan mal
Eolmana deo haeya aradeudgenni

Neoui bumonim malsseum wae deudjireul anhni
Geu sarami wae eodiga tto eotteohni
Geunyang nareul tteonamyeon dwae himdeun ildo aniya
Ije niga saldeon sesangeuro ga

* Neol saranghandan mal ijen mothae gidaryeodalran mal deoneun mothae
Neol apeugeman han babo gateun naya motnan namjail ppuniya

Garago tteonarago dwiji anhneun geojitmareul haebwado
Sildago andoendago jakku jakku ureodaneun neoraseo
Miryeoni nae mameul jaba nae gyeothe neol dugu sipeo
Hajiman deoneun andwae neol wihae kkeutnayaman hae

Aju eoril ttaebuteo naman aldeon neoraseo
Mothaebun iri neomu manhatjanha
Geotgo sipeun geotdo gatgo joheun otdo ipeoyaji
Ije niga saldeon sesangeuro ga

* Repeat

Otteohke naega neoreul itgetni nae insaengui bitnadeon taeyangeul
Ireohke na neoreul bonae bonaerimyeon eotteohke saljido
Moreuneunde

* Repeat

English:

I sounded like I was preaching on my previous post.I do apologize on that.People should choose what they should.Be what they want.All I hope is that people would just be clear-minded and not forget the true meaning of humanity even with or without a religion.We have to use our common sense in making our choices in the future.It's the fate of the world.

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
You're still an innocent

There's some things you can't speak of
But tonight you'll live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would sing what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's all right, just wait and see

Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

This song entitled "Innocent" by Taylor Swift. A song that describe the current situation.

It was my fault for not making it so clear.
It was my fault that I twist with the words.
It was my fault that I didn't consider your emotions.
It was my fault for being so naive.
It was my fault for only thinking for myself.
It was my fault for being so selfish.
It was my fault trying to do everything on my own.
It was my fault for leaving you.
It was my fault for being somebody I'm not.
It was my fault for making you cry.
It was my fault for being so stupid.
It was my fault for not realizing it.
It was my fault for you.
It was my fault for starting to write it.
It was my fault for trying to forget it.
It was my fault that you misunderstood.
It was my fault that we fought.
It was my fault that we went our separate ways.
It was my fault that you would hold grudges.
It was my fault that I lied.

You can scold me.
You can hate me.
You can rant on me.
You can scream on me.
You can not be friends with me.
You can ignore me when we meet.
You can delete me off from your contact list.
You can block me.
You can told your friends to do the same.
You can roll your eyes on me.
You can oppose against whatever I do.
You can discriminate me.
You can spit at me.
You can throw things at me.
You can slap me.
You can act coldly towards me.
You can say those harsh words to me.
You can destroy me.
You can break my mentality.
You can make me cry.
You can make me feel I should jump down.
You can push the blame on me for everything.

This is right.I feel guilty.Do what you wish but what I know is it's the past and we should just look forward.The future that would be best for ourselves.We should not hold to the past so tightly.Maybe this was the only choice.To accomplish something you have to let go of things you love dearly.I'm sorry.

You can take that eraser and just rub me away.
Or just cut away my picture.
Or darkened it with marker.
I can disappear from your life forever.
I would never socialize with you ever again.
I would never provoke you.
I would never make eye contact with you.
I would not make you cry again.
I would not make you laugh again.
I would stop everything that has to do with you

Hello readers.I'm back here once more.Yesterday I went to two recruiting agent in town with my friend and we have to wait for a week before they get back to us.It is already December.By the time I get my result,I don't think they would want to recruit people that could commit less than 3 months.This is really a pain.

Ahh Oh well.Just have to be patient.

As the topic suggested "The Forgotten",let me share a story with all of you here.

There was once a boy who lived by himself.He never knew the true meaning of love,care and warmth as his parents had passed away when he was just a baby.They were killed in a car accident and miraculously he survived.His life goes on with him going to school just like every normal child would do.His parents had also left their life saving for him to use.

People often misunderstood him.There were some that mock him for not having a mother's love.And there were some whom merely get close to him for his parent's wealth.The teacher did noticed it but simply ignore.For that teacher,she is assign to teach and that is all to it.She couldn't be bothered with her students situation in class.Years after years,the boy could not take it anymore.He stood up and shouted at the bullies.Instead,no one empathize with him and simply carry on with their task.Thus,he felt it was useless to do anything.

On a summer evening,he love to write poetry and this was what he wrote:

Thou parents love I may not have
Trying my best to fit in
Thy creatures did not gave in
Tainted my life like a black pit

He then started to cried and mourn his parents death.Although they had went to the other world 8 years ago.He shouted with his head pointing to the sky,"God,Why!"

"Why did you took them away?!"
"Why did you give me a second chance?"
"Why are you so unfair to me?"
"I just wanna die!"
"Why Why Why!"

His neighbors peered out from their window and looked at him.Not giving a second thought and started to scold him.He rushed into his house and took a knife,with his tears rolling down from his cheeks,not knowing what he should do next...

-End-

There are these moments when god give a second chance to people but took away something from them that they held dearly.Love.We may say that god was cruel to us in giving us such a life.That was never the case.God gives us a second chance to allow us to see other opportunities that we hadn't see before,something that we missed.It's true that our life was rough with such mockery but it's just a test.

We would ask "Why the test?"

I believe it was to make us stand up as someone stronger than before believing that we could do it.When we do that,we learn and gain experience.We would then be able to meet all challenges and overcome it.Our mentality is something that is easily disrupted but due to such early exposure,it would be fixed.

We are only left with a few more years to live in.And I myself had questioned God those questions above.God didn't answer me directly but I realize it in my journey to find myself.I was cruel to myself.And being unfair too.

Someone I just met today told me that.We are given a unique personality to be what we are and not what people tell us to be.This is our life and we choose the path ourselves with the guidance from god.It's true that we are not appealing but in life we have a purpose to fulfill.And that is faith.

Faith is something that we can only find through our religion.Be warned.There are activities that are trying to destroy these religions.Mine.You.And simply everyone that believes in them.We may be busy with everything; school,work and life.I'm not denying that either but we must not forget that this life is temporary.

There are many things that makes this life so appealing.The newest electronic gadgets,games,accessories and clothes.We would go all out on them just to make ourselves feel better.It may be efficient but these things tend to create distractions.

Imagine by a group of Youtubers,originally sung by John Lennon.Credits goes to them.The song is on the sidebar.Below are the lyrics


Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one


Well,that's all from me.We had forgotten the life god gave us to fulfill its wishes due to this distractions.We had forgotten about it.