Hey guys. : D

The holidays are pretty much over.I couldn't say much that happened during it.Well I had to thank a friend of mine who introduced a show to me.I fell in love with it because of the music.They did what I did.Express themselves through music.

Anyway,I had a talk with a friend today.I don't know but I am really open-minded to religions.In no way would I be offended because we are living in a society that consist of different races.We have to be open-minded to resolve any doubts that they have.

Being Consistent is a way to show that our life are pretty much balanced to achieve it.I wouldn't say that I could deliver a consistent result since I look at it like a roller coaster.One moment it went up and the next went down.

The Speech Day was great.Well for those whom appreciated music that is.I thought I screwed up with the prize collection.Oh well.I hope no one noticed it.

I am feeling rather enthusiastic right now.I have no clue what sparked it off.And I am trying my best not to make this post like a joke.

I am afraid aren't I.I had been feeling it for so long since young but never really faced it.It is true.I keep on pushing it aside.I do not have the courage to face it alone.And in the end this problem would just get complicated to solve.For instance,I do not even know something about me which could really change my life upon it's decision.

I am afraid : (

Hey guys.The long jump event was a failure in some sense.I keep on looking at the final board and didn't even face what is ahead of me,ending up to land with my body face flat.

Oh well.What is done is done.

Should we leave a person that we care about.A person which doesn't really bother to make a change in their life after so many attempts.Sometimes you guys really mystify me about all of your plans.I could never restraint from what you are doing.It's your life and I am not your parents to do so.But it just hurts.To see all of you just wasting your life here...

Punishment has been served.Only one day.Another 7 months 30 days left.

Should really be motivated.

Tomorrow will be busy with rehearsal and another tuition.Hope I could start to organize myself by next week after everything is done.

I really wish to apologize.But no matter how many times I do,I will just end up scolding you over and over again.Maybe I feel irritated of your actions.And it is my fault for scolding you too much when it is not my business anyway.

I have no intention to treat you this way.Should I just ignore you?

This Friday would be Speech Day.And I'm done with it.Studies will be coming after this if there's nothing on.

Good luck Guys!

Hey guys.The holidays are ending in 2 hours from this post.And school will be starting another 8 hours.

This coming week will be busy!

Anyway a few updates.

Things have hit rock-bottom for me.And I am serving my punishment starting from tonight.I will still be able to online and all.But this time I have decided to change something.

It could be that this is a wake up call for me and no more playing.I have wasted 3 months for nothing and I could really say that I did waste my time.There are things which I could buy over time but my studies couldn't.I had been a fooled to be falling for everything that is right under my eyes.

This change will start and will start now.It is for my sake I guess.

Reducing of socializing or cutting it off is either way I could think of as a solution.I'm just wasting my saliva aren't I.

It seems that I have to work alone now.I couldn't rely on people so much because they have their own life to carry on and if I just bug them,they would get rather annoyed.

I am letting go of everything.Grudges,Pain,Suffering,Relationship and everything else.I am just willing to forgive and forget at this moment of time.And Shall I not remember it anymore.

I felt ashamed.I should have done this few years back...

This is the final year we are here.And it is time to make a difference in everyone life.But it depends on the situation.

I still haven't found a friend who will have my back when I'm in trouble and I got theirs when they are.And will help in whatever problem.And will never take advantage of one another nor stabbing our back for their own personal gain..A friend..Where are you?

Hey guys.Whew.What a week.Well as all of you might know,now is the March 'holidays'.In a sense,I don't really called it much of a holiday because every time after morning class,I would have to make a trip down to the hospital until the late night.Well today, I didn't went there as I was really drained from yesterday and along with today's class.Probably I will go on tomorrow onwards.

So guys,all plans made have to be cancel for the time being.

My punishment would be starting in two days time as at the date of this post.8 months of containment straight after school hours.And next week would be the last minute preparation of Speech Day.Too late isn't it?

Anyway,life has been busy.And after seeing my result,I am rather disappointed.I could never pursue the course I wanted.I guess I would have to focus more.

Long Jump Event is coming up soon.Ugh.I hope there won't be any clash or I will be pissed off with these last minute rehearsal.

What should I type.

Currently no dilemma.

Things to do for this week:
Brush up my previous year study.
Revision should probably start now.So guys who want to find me can contact me.
Finish up homework.

Thinking of doing a cover.But it seems like I don't have a time for it.If I rush it,it would be crappy.

Anyway,I think that's about it that happened recently.

See ya.

Hey readers.School has been rather stressful with new stuff being taught.And also this friendship.

I had failed one of my subject in this term Common Test.I was rather disappointed.Life is really unfair and I myself could not fight for it since I am usually outnumbered.

What is it that is worth fighting for.I used to believe in justice but if this is how protocol are followed,I could not object to it.

Popularity is what people always look out for.They wanted to be popular within their members.In other words CLIQUES or just their classmates.I find it rather annoying to be in such group.

I had offered myself to be alone but you yourself object to it strongly.Tell me honestly.We had been friends for quite some time and you should know that I am capable in handling it myself.If you want a place,I don't mind giving it up.But to talk behind my back is way out of the point.I would never accept this.

I hate it! I hate it when people say that I have a soft heart!

Is it wrong to forgive people.Isn't that what people always told us to do.Not to bear any grudges against them.And yet,I am always the one taking advantage of.I know that this is the reality we are facing.I just don't know what to do.The O's level are coming up and yet I'm facing with so many problem.I wanted to focus.I wanted to get into a good course for my future.

Why am I always facing with so many obstacles in life.You had made me for what I am.And yet I had to persevere all this while carrying all the burden which I had hid it away for now.

Should I just accept whatever people ask or tell me to do.
It just feel like you are being somebody's pet.Acting without you thinking twice.

I'm so depressed.

Another competition had been ended and it is just the same story from my previous entry about "Competition".I do not want to say anything about it because what I feel is that everything was just wrong.Nothing was taken into consideration!

This life of mine is getting corrupted day by day.And so are the people around me.I just want to be alone in class.

Place me somewhere which I don't have any partner.It is safer for me.I do not want any happiness.I just want to be silent.I don't believe in happiness.I want to cast off that emotion away.

I feel like dying.My head is going to explode any second..

We are facing to an extinction of the final era.The conditions are getting worse with even more floods and earthquake occurring every part of the world.This could really just be the end.

Ughh.My head hurts..I will continue this some other time.

The butterfly effect.An effect in which we change or alter something,everything else would be affected.It also does follow the domino theory and the difference is just the speed for it to occur.

We had finally gotten back our common test result and it seemed that I had done rather badly.This is what you get for expecting too much in which I could not even deliver.

Focusing on the topic above.

All of us have our own weaknesses and strengths.Only the capabilities of each individual could contribute to an assignment.Of course,the dedication too.However,a mere speculation was created and proven which led to many people think differently towards us.I knew that this would happen.Because these weaknesses are those that people took advantage of even if it were to tarnish a person's status.

It is true that we shouldn't cry over spilled milk.However,when it come to fight the rights for someone.It changes the whole situation.

Rumors can be spread easily.Some are easily influenced by it and some aren't.This is what you called The Butterfly Effect.It affects those that are involved to the targeted person and those that surrounding it.

Anyway,school have been very bad recently just because of a project.This is why we couldn't rely on each other too much.The truth does reveal our ugly side.But as a group,if one had to fall,the rest would follow.And I had stressed so many times about the role of being a leader.You may lie but it will lead to nowhere...

"Only time will reveal the truth"