This morning I woke up with a weird dream.Ugh..Everyone in my dream started to ignore me but I saw someone in that dream that was happy than right now.Are these dreams meant to be the future of our friendship or are just the desire of my own mind.

New year is basically 4 hr and 30 minutes away from this post.And I got nothing to blog about.

Well at least I think I have something to blog about.

Now all of us know which class we are allocated to thanks to some of my classmates.Although the timetable they purposely made it more complex even though it is actually simple.

And about the new 8 page rules being enforce like 4 more days when the school reopen.Isn't that a bit too much?Well in my opinion I feel it is.And I could just burst into laughter about some of the rules.

Rules are rules.No matter how ridiculous they are.

Tonight it would be a quiet night for me.I don't know it could be the last one for me before my first brother come back tomorrow from China while my second brother who is currently working overtime until tomorrow morning.In other words,I'm spending my night alone which rarely happen to me.I'm not planning to sleep with my parents.How old am I?! 4? Of course not 16!.

But it would be pretty quiet.Silent night.

Dreams always remain like dreams and they are never being fulfill.And yet now we are left two more days till new year.

Have we accomplished our 2009 new year resolution.

Well Hello readers.New year is coming.Are you excited about it? Another year has gone in a flash.And I can say that this year is rather more interesting than the previous one.Well basically,I have made more new friends until this day.Well I am happy about that I guess.Next year would come and go just like every previous year.

Uh..What should I say..*Brain-Storm*

Eureka!Okay that's lame.Continuing On..A person can hold grudges easily but letting it go is very hard.All of us,inside in our mentality we have this thing called desire.A person can put their mind and soul to it just to get what their heart desire.Be it another person dying,presents,guys/girls etc.

It seems that we have gotten into a deeper meaning to our relationship but to me it seems that it was a bad choice to do it.Is it me or was it you? I feel so insecure being around you anymore and sometimes irritated or even annoyed.Maybe it was my fault.I think it would be best to stop at this very point of time before it got way out of hand.

Uhm.Don't think that it was referring to you.I know who you are but it is not you you know?Don't misunderstand.

Falling in love at first sight is like magic right.And dreams that seems so surreal make it like a reality brings about our happiness..But our paths would never cross.I think.Well literally.You are a different type of person and so am I.I would always think the best for you and would never do anything to annoy you.

Eh.This is the same.Not referring to you if you think I am.If you feel you fit what I did it is meant for you.

Ahahahaha.I'm talking nonsense.Just filing up these entry.School should start soon so that I have something to talk about..

Signing Off.

Another day has passed and I seem relieved about the commotion yesterday.Whew.I can't believe what I told people yesterday.It just felt like a dream and I was spouting nonsense at that time.Well during conversation online that is.But now I'm back to normal.

New year is around the corner.And I have to start to achieve the upcoming new year resolution.It is going to be a lot to do for the upcoming year which is like in a few days time.My brother is coming back from his trip to China.The time passed so fast.

I felt relieved.Seriously.I should stop being paranoid over things that won't happen.Maybe because in my mind people always say it is better to be safe than never.

Ahh.Well put that aside.I don't really want to remember it anyway.I don't know what to say anymore again.I will add on if something cross my mind.

Like I said before,I am going to be more active here.Let's see what happen.Today work was fine.Everytime there is always laughter that could make me just forget all the problems away.That's good I guess.

I really don't know what I should blog about.

I hope that my friend will get well soon.

Should I open up myself?

Who knows me well?

Who knows my secret?

There are some secrets that are best not to be told right? There are reasons and consequences and I know they are still not ready to accept it.Even if they knew,I would not blame them and run away.Because this world is full of inspiring unique individuals that possess a lot of different talent and still could never be perfect.Sometimes I feel like I have human phobia and sometime I feel like I have amnesia or usually I gets both of them.

Well we are not perfect by nature.And no one knows another individual secrets without by asking of course.It is a matter of trust to open up to another individual.

Time really are flying rather fast these days especially during the weekdays.School going to reopen pretty soon.

What are you going to do in the upcoming years.
How would it affect our relationship.
And Are you willing to take the risk.

Wow.Nowadays I just feel lazy to blog.Well since I'm here let's talk about a few things in this post.

All of us have already know our results by now and most I can say got promoted.Getting into this promotion is by mere luck and because of this slight chance that was given,we should appreciate and plan to work harder in the upcoming year.And because of this so called "luck" some got separated from their friends as they once thought that they were better than the other one and relied on it too much.Miracles don't happen to everyone and this shows that it happen to a certain individual..

Today is Christmas Eve.What do I have to say.Merry Christmas I guess to everyone.May you enjoy this festive occasion.

We are still friends and our relationship are still in intact.That is great isn't it.What do I have to say.I forgot what I need to blog about.School going to reopen soon.That's random..

Anyway,life has been great and I just keep on making new friends from different ways.Weird.I should start to blog after soon and rat about my life.This year I am not going to celebrate Christmas with my friends so don't bother asking me out tomorrow.If you ask the reason why,must I tell you?

Well I'm going to hit the bed pretty soon.That's for now in my mind to blog about..

Alright something I just remembered.What does a date sounds like.Two people going out or a group of people.Sometimes you just make me puzzled about the things you want to do.Even if we go out,you tried to bring a lot of our friends because why the more the merrier?If you want to have something special between us then this is the basics to think about before we even take another step forward.Someone told me about it what is the true meaning of a date.I don't know why I am talking about a date.Merry Xmas People!

It has been 10 days since I post anything here.

Many people always take things for granted and life keep on giving opportunity to those individuals just waiting for them to change.Many have gathered upon one place today awaiting for their results.

We have gone through so much in our youth years and yet we still do not bother to take and learn the responsibility that we should bear.We are the types of an individual which is stubborn to everything that have been given to us.I do not understand myself either.Everytime,it would just be another memory written down here...

All of us are still divided among groups in this world.And each groups could never really counterfeit one another.Because some have the upper hand while some had the lower hand.I find it a pity to see all of us divided into groups because we are all of the same type of kinds that has the ability to do any human being would.Of course it would be a different situation for those that are less fortunate.This is what I hated most about us.We favor the one that we like and we neglect the one that we don't.And why is that you asked.The answer is simple.Money;Popularity;Looks;Status;.All of this are the major factor of why things never revolve around us the way it should..

Uhh.We are just full of craps.We tried to make everything so complicated when we could not accept the truth.

Six days have passed since I blogged and currently I am in a dilemma.Well I am not sure if it is or not.But first let me say Bon Voyage to my brother that is off to China for one month.I wish him all the best for his stay there.

I find it very peculiar that you only told us at this very moment.And I once told you what is going to happen to you in my dream.I am not sure if any of this come to your mind but right now I can see the smile that you once never had before.I do not wish to tear it away from you because you had so many hardship before this.

If it happen,it always does happen for a reason.I could never deny that.But I can say that,it would change all of our life.Maybe I am not ready to accept this reality.And sometimes I wish that I could just well be passive for once.

We are left with few more days till our result.Some are happy about it and some are impatient while some are just afraid of it.All of us had tried to remind one another what is the consequences of it.Some did heed it while some just ignore it.It is too late to think about it anyway.

Sometimes I wish that miracles do happen.And wish that we could at least feel it.And I feel that soon the dark times would once again approach.For these upcoming years it would be like another storm would be hitting us.Maybe I am feeling afraid for these dreams that I keep having to come true.

I don't hold grudges towards anyone up until now.Because it is best to just forgive and forget about it then holding it that bitterness with us throughout life and just keep on thinking about it.Someone also told me that if we cared too much about what people say,we would never succeed.I find it rather true because if we also work cooperatively the only one that gets a promotion is an individual and not a team..And if we are too self-conscious about other people words.It would just hold back our potentials..

Sitting And Wandering.What should I do?

It's been so long.Too long I felt since I typed here.The days to our results are getting lesser and lesser and the pressure is set to increase.I really feel uneasy nowadays.Sometimes I wake up,I try to forget the things that had happened.And tell to myself that It is a new day.But these thoughts are just holding me back.And sometimes I wake up,I just do not want to go on with the agenda set for today..I have grown much.And as the times went by,I keep on having senility towards the situation I'm facing.I wonder what is wrong with me either.

Symptoms have started to show.I am not really thinking too much.It is just what I feel deep down.Has my time come for me,I wonder.Well even so,I have a feeling that I won't last that long either.Probably one or two years And then it will just be up for me.I'm prepared for it.

I don't know.I just don't want to do or say anything right now.I just want to keep quiet for a while.Everything that come out from my mouth is just too hard to handle..I want to lock myself in the room and stay there.I don't wish to socialize anymore.I am just irritated.I am demoralized.I don't know what to do.I never asked to get this life.I'm sorry if I bring burden to you.I'm sorry I could not impress you.I'm sorry that I was not perfect.I'm sorry that I could not help you in your times of need.I'm sorry that I was given by god to you.I'm sorry for everything.

To you,getting out of this situation is just to have fun and forget it all away.I wish I was you.I wish I was different.I wish I could choose my life.And I wish I could just die right now.

I always tried to be strong.But now I realize my mistake.To keep holding on for so long is just too unbearable to hold on.It might be two years since I started this blog.But these feeling were there even before that.