When we see this child we would feel pitied as he was left alone in the street with no food or shelter to survive with but because of our reputation in a society it would affect ourselves thinking..Expenses would be higher than before feeding one more person in the family..All of us are treated equally maybe not now maybe the afterlife..But do we want to sympathize and take in some kid off the street and adopt them as a god child..Just like donating to a charity,always donate with generosity as the money we earned are donated off and would go to someone else which could give them either food,shelter,clothing or education..

This is how we are.We are given a proper education,food,shelter and clothing but still we are not satisfied.Though there are differences in the household we live in compared to other people.They have to bare in mind that once we parted from this world,we would live behind our riches,rank,reputation and family and only carry on our deeds.Either good or bad each have its own consequences.

Up to this day,still people are treating them just by how they look which sometimes really disgust me.They might look like what you unexpected but never knowing what true personality they have though they at some time have some negative personality.Some are easily influence to follow others while some are not just because the friendship they had is longer..

I remembered black skies
the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
as time began to blur
Like a startling sign
that fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
the distance in your eyes

Give me reason
to fill this hole
connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight
but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
between where we were standing

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss
in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret
and each goodbye
was a mistake to great to hide

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes

Give me reason
to fill this hole
connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

Across this new divide
Across this new divide

This song entitled "New Divide" By Linkin Park which resemble us we would never really take action if sign are already showing up until the last minute where time were dire for human civilization.Though we never really believe in prediction it causes to affect everyone when it truly occurred.Because of that we neglect to think of the possible outcome of the event even if we slightest doubt it at the moment.Taking extra precaution could save the whole entire population even if it cost money..Isn't that is the most important?We live life and we die as our time is up.This is our homeland and if people are not thinking for their own people safety,this would affect the trust they had once gained through elections.We could anytime be facing external threat from other lifeforms in the vast space as we are just a mere planet in a galaxy..There could be other undetected galaxies out there..Now people have the power and money just to bribe one another and making them win in cases in court which justice could be hidden away with lies along with the truth that never have been heard..Sometimes we would have to suffer till the end with shame that never committed..And sometimes we would be safe if it was rule accordingly..

"This is who we are.We never think of others but only our own reputation to protect.."

Tomorrow would be the day the school holidays end and whereby it would open officially despite the increasing number of cases of the H1N1 Influenza A virus.

Many things have happened and there were some that are left procrastinated away till the last minute..Differences or disputes that had sparked over the holidays had not come to reconcile till today due to various reason..Rising temper when looking at one face or was it just as an excuse for them to use as they lack of the confident to see them..

Does someone really go to the extent in a relationship to satisfied their partner's need?I feel that not all does that but sometimes this shows how desperate or the willingness to sacrifice their own dignity just to get that far..

Always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say

But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show
It's time to let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me

Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star

Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me

Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me

There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me, this is me

Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

This song entitled "This Is Me" by Demi Lovato in Camp Rock Movie.A song which I fond of showing that we should believe in our dreams if we want to go far..Showing our talent would bring us to the spotlight because all of us have individual unique talent.Though now we are still unsure about what it is,once we know it we got to give it all of our best because we are usually easily influence by others which would affect ourselves..

Tomorrow would be the start of the school days and things would happen in a typical everyday school life..Though now is different than what we face before in 2003 because the mindset we have and the knowledge we have gathered can be practice when it really hit the nation..

"Staying Strong..Being One"

This world is just too much or maybe just the people living in it.We live through pain and suffering to earn something but to benefit oneself they neglect it.I feel this world is quite absurd..Day after day nothing is accomplished just by scolding..We are all humans of the same being and the limit of our knowledge restrain ourselves when compared with another one..The number of cases are rising in Singapore and so is the shipment of North Korea vessel's remained unclear..Many happen along with many deaths..

I am never a team player which I always feel and my preference would be doing things alone..It could be my negative point because I feel what the other feels..I put in their shoes with what they had gone through.Nevertheless when it comes to benefits this was put aside..They had done so much and they thought I had done too much..I don't know what to do..The more I do for them,the more I got scolded in the end..It's ridiculous..Though I remain silent I would not tolerate long...

"Absurdity is everywhere"

Friends..Who are they really and what is their true motive towards another person..To used them for their own gain or really gain their trust in a relationship..Always in friendship there is confusion and often misunderstanding..Never wanting to accept the fact that there is no interest shown and even if they were force to go they would be the one ending up spoiling the whole thing which would be pointless..

School is starting in few more days and it felt so fast that each week had gone by just like that..It felt nothing was accomplished during the holidays but the feeling of tiredness everyday with a so called "flexible" working hours..Though there are so many things that is happening throughout the world,life still goes on until it affect a specific country..For now,there is no worry or a feeling of alarm of whatever threat had been imposed or imposing.

The weather temperature seems to be increasing everyday and so does the case of the flu virus..Precautionary measure have been taken by schools in advance to be prepared for the worst either if it would really affect the world badly or not..If not there is still other way to affect the rest..

Where has the love gone to for this world.And why could not all nations work together to live into a unity world.Though there are compensation throughout talks nothing seems to be effective.Yet my voice had not been heard loud enough..Sometimes I felt it is just getting softer and softer..

As I put my earpiece onto my ears,I felt myself floating away as I walk down path to path..Songs being played and the strong urge of letting myself out feels the mood was right.The surroundings with the cool breeze and as birds chirping away..I saw many things happened around me..Construction work,cars passing by,and buses turning in circle.As I looked upon the sky,it felt so sad that the days are already numbered and marked and soon we have to be parted..

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

A song entitled "Everytime" by Britney Spears.A song which holds full of emotion expressing an effort that was tried but when we have no support our confidence also fall..Even if we have make our mistakes,it was still best to forgive and forget because what we had would be ruined forever just by not saying "sorry"..Being persistent in something is useless if it would cause havoc to the whole population..A world war would begin and we would soon be during the year of wartime..Children would have to be forcefully to fight regardless of their age..Just for the honor of the country..We used to love this world and treat it with kindness and was cautious with our actions.The gas produced was limited back then.So was the production yet something was too powerful and that was money.Money was everything to them which makes anything goes round but have they ever thought..Once a war start money was into armaments only and not enjoyments or investing to business..

Now As I look back we have gone through so much..But time is always scarce everywhere..I can't believe we are parting away from this world soon..It is just too soon..

"As I think of it..it felt so hard to be true..Tearing Up.."

The place we lived in and the place we dreamt of achieving our goals would be a prolonging dream if we did not do anything about our homeland..Few days ago,I had a dream about the world extinction as we entered the third World War and countries that hold the key for such event to happen were the one strongly oppose by other forces..So many have happen to the world we are currently at,Recession,Global Warming,Influenza A H1N1 virus and pre-WW3..Yet nothing had been settled yet and still ongoing..Everything seems to have no end and the problems keep coming one after the other..Soon people attitude starts to change..And the world Pole Shift of its magnetic field tilted away from its original axis..Red Giant Dwarfs..Complete Depletion of Ozone Layer..Exposed of Ultra Violet Rays..Asteroids

Prophecies are starting to be true..One good example is the Mayan Calendar.A calendar that had been developed by the Mayan Civilization that could predict of the outcome of the world.They had been so accurate about their prediction and one prediction which attract many people attention, The date 21 December 2012 which means to them as the long count of 13.0.0.0.0 of the 13 Baktuns which means the End of the World..Okay I read through several sources which I still find it is hardly to believe but some are now starting to believe it..Since the world is leading to nowhere,they might as well take up this hobby of beliefs which could disrupt their social status in the community..If it is true or false,we would just have to wait until the day arrive..

Waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every morning before,
now I wonder what my life is going to mean if its gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
I started staring at the passengers waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time

[chorus]
but I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, its all, coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

I think its turning to a clock but I don't really know
I can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there was no where to run to
I sat down on the street and took a look at myself
said where you going you know the world is heading for hell
say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

[chorus]
I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, its all, coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you

[chorus]
but I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, its all, coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

This song entitled "How Far We've come" by Matchbox Twenty.A song that was written how far human civilization had gone through to get where it is today.It was like a typical normal day even if there were warning of the world ending today.Still we could not decide the fate that we are experiencing.Mother Nature had given us so much for us to nurture and we destroyed it for our developments of making profits and gains to one self.And I believe that this is the suffering we had to face with because of our negligence on such small disaster that occurred before..If it did come true,we would know our true sole purpose in this world..Our Effort Against All Odds

"And I thought we had time to change it.."

Yet another dream I experienced today..The world was at war and nothing seems to stop even if they have close relation ties among countries,region or even nations..All arms weapon were released during final hours of the world..And as I stand in the middle of the dream,it flew across me and that feeling of urgency to avoid the effect of the missles felt so surreal..It could be the final war..The war that involve the whole population belonging to different part of the world to fight against on.This dreams should not be happening to me anymore.

I also dreamt about the sun.It's final evolution.It got closer to the Earth causing an immediate meltdown to everything that reaches it's radiation field..Meteorite started to come into the Earth atmosphere causing a stirred in the ozone layer.Nothing was at ease and yet I was the only one who realized it..

I did not realized that this dream could occur to me once more.Was it a sign?A sign of warning.If so,what cause it.Global warming?Uncooperative nations?I don't know.I wanted to find the true source of the incident and yet everytime the time is always scarce..Should I go into a really deep sleep like a coma to see all of my dreams that is awaiting for me..Are dreams really controlled by it's own user will?If yes,why can't I?Why was the feeling so real..I couldn't really tell anything..

"Dreams..Yet another Dream"

Things do change and friends leave because all of us are just a 2nd or maybe even a 3rd party to them if they had no one to talk to.And no matter how much we sat down and cried for days and days regretting the decision we made with our friends or the decision we made for ourselves towards them.Guess what life's still goes on.Even if you or me moaning for someone death we still have to earn a living.Money don't just drop from the sky but we have to work for it by our own effort no matter how tiring it is.It is still a job.No matter how much we hate it.It is still a job.

Sometimes it is for the best just to leave a job that we really dislike as much as hating someone because the longer we stay there the more negative things we find about the place.Our self-esteem would decrease overtime.Sometimes we also have our own needs yet they don't really see it.Whatever we experienced also never thought of..

It's been two weeks since the start of the holidays and now people already have changed and so have I..I don't know why but I just want to avoid any communications between friends.I'm not what I used to be..Though I had said this a lot of times,I would still stress on it because inside me nothing remain at ease.Always my mind got worked up..Everyone second thinking of something even when I'm about to sleep..It's just like a disease.

I'm not avoiding any of my friends is just that I felt that I might just say something wrong towards you which would destroy our relationship as friends..You don't mind but my mind mind..I don't know how to say and sometimes all the reason I could never think off would just blurt out of my mouth..The only place I could find peace would be the night sky under patches of grass..

"Why do i keep losing myself.."

Day by Day
I look into your eyes
To find the answers
I'm looking for

And as each glance
I gazed upon
It doesn't really shows me
Of what you really are

I would wonder through an eternity
Of the hope that I want to find
To make my life a better one
I just want to stand strong

[Chorus]
And Now is the time
To change the things that were not meant to be
I still believe that I could move on
And be who I am that i had prolonged

There are dreams that could be achieved
With a little effort we put in
And though the times is getting harder for us
We have to believe
Believe there's a hope

[Verse 4]
We have gone through so much
As a young individual
Yet they don't really realize
The problem we had gone through

With so many things at hand
Sometimes I wonder
Could we really even finish it off
With what we have promise.

[Repeat Chorus]

And Just believe, there is a hope
A hope that will last forever..

Sometimes when I laughed, I made people smile and when I always makes a problem I made them frustrated and that frustration does not stay at only one person but transmitted to another person easily.It's been quite a while since I realized and after reading so many blogs randomly clicking made me understand something very clear.There are things that requires to put up a fake smile even when the tough gets going because that little smile could really motivate someone else even if we don't feel like smiling anyway.I have been quite a cheerful person.I think.Somehow I feel it is time for me to treat others the opposite of what I used to treat them before.I don't know.I just want to change from my goofy self to be someone more responsible.

All it takes is just a period of time within this one month,I would make it happen but I would smile from time to time even if it is weird.As the examinations are getting closer,this coming Monday would be the last to be goofing off and the intensive self revision would have to start soon..Homework's are still undone..And I don't have time to flip through the questions or at least do one of it..

Everyone is different in their own way and I understand how they get their things done in their own way.We could not force something into their mind or routine if they are so used to it.When some part of their mentality is disturbed it would affect the rest which could lead to something unfruitful.My previous entries wrote everyone is a book with its own chapter and every pages that is on that page is what we did during a day.Though our stories never end till the day we take our last breath in this world.Some don't realize that they put up a fake smile just to make others not to be worried for them.And that is the most obvious thing anyone could read and understand.I've tried it and yet I don't find anything beneficial when we are not expressing ourselves truly.It would make us frustrated with the things we wanted to go our ways.And such things would not happen if we never utter a word and fight for it.With such small difference we could convince the rest to be influence by our act and soon their mindset would be changed.

Sometimes I think it is the best for me just to let go because the longer I stay in there the more I cause problems for others.Now I am drifting apart from them slowly, they were my friends once but now I had to just let go of them. I do not want them to be affected by my own decision and these decision were solely made by me and not whatever event had occurred. I had thought about it ever since I had joined their corporation. I assume that it is the best for me just to let go of it because I could no longer control it anymore without any support from my fellow colleagues, I could not do anything just because a matter of ranks play a part in it..

In such a short time so many unthinkable things happened and I wanted to fight for their rights to get what they deserve even if it would affect my reputation but all of this would not happen if they themselves do not want to fight for it themselves.I am only someone who could aid along the way but not rely on when problems came up.This world is full of people discriminating one another and just because of that this society became corrupt although we never really see it in front of our eyes with whatever discriminative act happen with those became victim.We live in a multi-racial society and our pledge was written :

We, the citizens of Singapore,
pledge ourselves as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society,
based on justice and equality
so as to achieve happiness,
prosperity and progress for our nation.

Thus, this does not give anyone the rights who owns a company to discriminate against others because they live in Singapore which follow Singapore Rules and Regulation whether they like it or not.Such act is despicable and should no longer be carried on.Justice will stand!

Although I typed all of this,I am willing to prevent such act to prevent a person become a victim in such event.But like I said,I could only aid but could not be relied on so it's your big effort that comes to play if you want to fight for your rights that you deserve..

Being prejudice is indescribable because it is just like jumping to conclusion without knowing the true source of the cause and problem.Yet it had been so clear to me that your acy could lead to nowhere..

"Justice will always prevail!"