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Monday, September 29, 2008 @ 5:41 AM
♥ Another Year
 Another Year has passed and a lot of things has happen..Today is a year where i celebrate my day of birth but yet I felt quite down about it..I do not know why though,my self are unlocking itself from the time when this began..When a person wishes,it made myself quite sad and I felt quite sorry for the things I had done in the past..I regret and just could not really understand myself anymore..Through thick and skin I have suffered,I still manage to stand today with two feet..I don't really balance myself quite well and it did show upon how people sees about it..I'm not a person who is quite biased but people just don't understand me and do not really want to know me that well..I know the reason though..I may live in isolation and soon with no friends..I would understand what's the reason and be someone that is from another universe..It's a choice that I had to live with and be fixed with..There are times when we all understand that life isn't everything..There are something much better out there for us..but to some they just don't understand my true feelings..I'm confused wherever I go..
"No matter who I seek for help,it would always hit me back with a bigger problem.."
Friday, September 26, 2008 @ 12:42 PM
♥ Isolation
 People are confused and always wanted the right answer for their problems..The days of the exams are getting closer so does a new year for me..I always wonder would the possibilities of passing would just not to study or do we have to just to do well..Every time life is a gamble so does this,we are gambling an opportunity away due to the sense of naive we have..Your parents might be successful and some might be not,still everyone should be treated equally..Boasting would just make people's mind think that you are so good that you might do well than those parents that are not that successful..We are all different..and our patience is quite limited as a human being..Sitting in isolation would it really focus our mind to do the things we want or go with friends that you have..Now people don't treasure the friends they had as I see in my school life, regardless for the upcoming exams they are taking advantage of one another and making that victim as a pet of theirs..Everywhere there is always sadness and its because that we express our self the bitterness but who would really be there to comfort us and share this bitterness..Might be few,one or none..They don't care..Only care for themselves..Soon my mind would rot..into that bitterness..and emptiness would be there..
"Who would understand the pain if we keep bleeding.."
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 @ 3:09 PM
♥ Mistakes
 In life people have to work hard just to see results showing upon their hard work.No one can have a great results without studying..As In Previous entries,people are unique in many ways.They can learn and understand by hearing,visually or practices.Practice makes perfect and that means you have to put a lot of hard work despite the number of time it take just to master it..In a classroom environment,there are people who is noisy,distracting and such just to get the attention from other people.As a student like myself,you have to learn and be attentive in class,attend all classes and just ignore those that are making a nuisance of themselves in class.Your future is decided by your own bare hand and not theirs..Exams are coming up and time is really limited as it kept decreasing for the thing that is not really beneficial we do in everyday life..Understanding oneself would bring us a long way and would bring up our confidence..In a test even if you are not good at it you won't feel guilty like those other who cheated on it..Integrity brings up our self and show who and what kind of character we are..It's better to fail rather then pass by cheating..You would not benefit anything from it..
"It's not a theory,lies or rumour but actually the fact.."
Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ 11:21 PM
♥ It might not be much
 Everything in this world meant something and so does a single dot on a piece of paper..People everytime assume that we would meet with their demands without fail and if one day we did not do so they would change their view about us and use it against other people..You might be someone who is older than me and hold such wisdom..I have always given the respect that you really desire like everyone else..and would not treat unequally..I may not be who you think I am but its the way I was made to be..You don't like it neither do I but still I have to live with it no matter how many years it would take..I might also not be the one that who you thinks as that perfect person it does not really bother me as I was also made for who I am and also thankful for it rather than having nothing...
I feel quite away when I'm with the people around me and when I'm alone my mind would change like I was typing this entry..It brought my mind at ease as there is nothing much to think of..My mood would change differently as I mix around people..So does my liking to doing my own hobbies..I do not really understand myself that well and why my personalities or also my whole life keep moving from one to the other and to the start..People made me happy but I can't make my own self happy..True happiness comes from the one around us but not within the soul..I'm really glad that I had mix with all of you even though we end up enjoying ourselves even more rather than studying..
"True friends is there for me but what about my own self finding my true and stable dream.."
Thursday, September 18, 2008 @ 12:00 AM
♥ Suppose to be true?
 As i look and remind of the past memories,could I have really take a wrong step in my life that made it change so dramatically.My friends now or the people i seem to see everyday are just being stubborn.Why are you giving me all your burden!Am I a servant to you who must follow whatever you say!Well I'm not so stop treating me like your own personal maid!Get a grip of your life..You hate that you hate this everything you hate..I know what the cause of this problem but you yourself don't realize it..You took advantage of it and just did not want to ask for a stop..A reward which had been abuse severely led to this problem..For this while, it had not been the person who have always teach you in school to be blame but your own self..You just don't understand the way of life..Everywhere there is law and rules regardless we would have to face them when we make troubles..Don't you think YOU can escape from it! In your heart you may be free but to others you are guilty..
"Succeed goes a long way..Failure goes a short one..Everyone can succeed"
Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 6:59 PM
♥ Our hope
 Everyone in this world can make a change by everyone they see regardless of our race,types or shape and sizes..We know that in this world there is a special person just waiting for us just to appear right before them the perfect someone..Week passed and I see how much more people have learn either to be someone who is a good or bad one..Once we have lost someone dear to us and now hope give us something for us to believe in and strive once more..I know that they can't replace the memories once I had before but it's good to have a change for once because we can't recover her back..I did not really like what had happen during the past few weeks and how the veteran treat her..I would bear that in mind..
People should not take advantage of someone who is just younger than them..We have our own way in doing things and if you like it or not you just have to take it..If you can't well do what you must do I won't beg on the floor for the forgiveness..Nowadays human's dignity have drop and this made what other people think we are really that desperate..
"A second chance is all it takes just for us to move on.."
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 @ 10:41 PM
♥ Directly or Literally?
 Sometime I wish that I do not want to mix with you anymore because you betray me once and twice eventually I'm getting sick and tired of it just to listen to your lies..Do you think its worth it to lie to your friend..Well if you don't regard me as your friend I don't mind but you must be committed to what you join in..Every time I would in the end get the scolding and blame just because of you..Is your heart made of stone?! No matter how much I hate you I still hate myself even more for making it this way..Was it my fault just because it turn to this way..Destiny does it really exist in this century..If my life are having so many obstacle one day I would just fall down and give up..don't bother ask why..an obstacle may be problem THAT we face ourselves but not letting other people carry your burden...I do not want to see you suffer that is why I would always do the ridiculous thing just for you even if its humiliation..But you took advantage of me and that made my limit to stand at the edge...Someday I wish that I would just go and give back all the burden to you...
"You might think that its you but in the end its not.."
Saturday, September 6, 2008 @ 2:32 PM
♥ What has happen to me
 The days of exams are coming and I'm getting sick quite easily..I do not know what has actually happen to me and it always felt like a burden as the one that I loved had to suffer this with me..I do not want to share this burden if possible just let me suffer alone..Though they are made to understand me me I still think its quite unfair..They should enjoy their life because no matter what I try and run away from my problem there would always be something chasing me regardless how many times I tried to avoid it..Aren't I'm made for what I am but why am I having so much problems shouldn't it be the other way round..Now I sit with silence not knowing what to do with my problems..
"What happen to me.."
Wednesday, September 3, 2008 @ 3:20 PM
♥ A time to gather
 Special Occasion would bring friends and family to gather around the table and talk about recent event.This has not become quite rare as people are busy with things that they thought are important..Have they ever thought when we all sit around a table it would make our bond even stronger..This month marks a very special and still its quite sad to see some people do not bother to do such with their own parents..The one who took care of them when they were young and the one which guide them along the way..When the month end a whole new beginning would cycle among us as we would ask for forgiveness...Some would cry as it symbolize a new year and the terrible things that had occur recently while some could not be bother to meet their own parents and ask for forgiveness for the things they have done..This shows how much humans have change and the respect they give to one another..
"Is it fair to do mischief and ask forgiveness later on.."
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Name: Tirmuzi;
Nickname: Takuya;
Birthday: 29 September;
Horoscope: Libra
Location: Singapore;
School: SGSS Pri(1998-2004)Sec(2005-2010).
Temasek Polytechnic
MSN: takuyakanbara29@hotmail.com
I'm someone who is
Cheerful;
Easy-Going;
Caring;
Loyal;
Gullible;
Understanding;
Supportive
Warm-Hearted
Friendly
Emo at times
Forgiving
Humble
Likes
Milkshakes;
Cotton Candy
VitaSoy;
To Be Alone;
Day-Dreaming;
Relaxing;
Listening to Music
Fruits
SoyaBean
Dutch Lady Milk
Wishes
Remember my Childhood;
Dreams
To do:
Grow Fat [Priority]
Die
JukeBox
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