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Tuesday, September 25, 2007 @ 5:38 PM
♥ Everything has Change...
 Everything has change.The people I knew,friend with have changed.I really think that I prefer it to be this way because they are like that and try to be friend with me untruly.I could see in their eyes of what they are hiding behind my back..Once they get a new thing to get over with in their life they would forget about their loved one.I really hate that kind of person of how they show their way to us.They have made us like we are from a previous generation or we don't exist!I have no choice but to go on with it.I also must ignore them and must not have contact with them.This is how human life are I guess.They also don't even care the young one and try to be protective against the older one.Having to do more work than others its not fair.I know that in this world life is never fair..I would turn myself to my old way when I was just Sec 1.I guess this is fate...I'm sorry to those for my friends...is just that None of you believe me not even the person close to me...I feel hurt and feel like going to another planet to live in...People here do not have a sense of care,all they do is bully,scold,insult,vulgarities.It really hurt when someone stab you in the back and you just realize it.I have noticed it with all the people I knew they are starting to do it on me.It now my time to just back-off.I do not want to hurt them..I will slowly close myself into what I used to be and would never open up again...I really have no choice...This is a goodbye to all my friends..the key is seal within the only person that i deeply trust,understand the way I'm experiencing...I think that I just don't fit in this world anymore...I hope you all understand....Where are my friends/loved one when I needed them now but its too late..None of them care,All of them ignore....I just don't belong in this world....
Friday, September 21, 2007 @ 2:39 PM
♥ Hurt..
 Each Day of my school life keep getting worse and worse but I'm still bearing the pain,insults everything..People thinks I'm laughing at them..but what does it really means to me?Am I laughing just to forget my deep,sad memories?What should I do...I don't believe there's another way for me to forget my memories.I cannot promise anyone what will happen to me,this generation and the earth.People are now different,they are quite different when i first met them.I felt quite hurt what they have become to.Changing into things that is not suppose to be.My friends day by day they will change and leave me...I could not do anything but accept it,its fate...I really miss my best friends,what have they become.Doing things that aren't suppose to be done.Are they testing my patience or they think that no one cares...I hope people would be the same as always I really hope that people would change for the good..I just hope please....It would be useless to live in this world for me if people are just the same,if there are no changes I would really want to leave this world for good.Living in a world with quarrel,fights....its just useless....Is this what the world is becoming too,A world full of hatred.....I cannot do anything to all my friends they could only change for themselves.....
Monday, September 17, 2007 @ 5:01 PM
♥ A burden?!
 Once I felt this again what does it feel like to have a good home,family,friends.But true happiness doesnt last and sometimes i feel like I'm a burden who tore them this happiness in their lives.What am i suppose to do..Is there still hope for this kind of matter well i don't think so..Although we may quarrel sometimes it must not be taken place often and i felt it does here.I feel like I am the person that is most insulted on..Regardless what they say i don't really spare a thought for them..Those kind of people would have a different kind of way of life but they do not show in this place of theirs...Burden,am i a burden to my loved one,am i a burden to destroy perfect happiness,would you all be happy if i just left this world for good?Would people be happy then,I just don't know but I think some would,some may even laugh...People nowadays don't respect one another feelings even in a funeral they would laugh hysterically.This is now the current generation of humans,humans who asked for things beyond the stuffs.All those in greeds make other people sad..Those people are not people that suppose to be respected...Are they a burden to this world too or just i am?!...
Sunday, September 16, 2007 @ 11:44 AM
♥ Dont you guys realized...
 Don't you guys realized that its the same...The Weather is acting really strange lately and some of you know why and some may not...We must all be prepared but we mustn't depend on people if only the people that u are depending on would help you..If only they have a kind heart,after the things you have done to them,hurt them,made them cry right in front of your eyes..What kind of person are we if we do that to the same species like us...All of us are same created with bone,flesh and skin.Only different skin tone,voices and appearance but still all of us treat each other differently...I feel like people do not really appreciate god's creation by each other heart...They would say anything as they like and would laugh with people who thinks the same with them...Those people have no feeling and when the time has come for him to protect they would come crying in front of you asking for forgiveness and protect their lives as they do not want to die first...They have all sort of reason to live and say that they would not disturb you but I know that this kind of people are just saying without meant what they say to us...When the time comes all the bad people will act differently we will see.....
Friday, September 14, 2007 @ 2:16 PM
♥ What is done cannot be undone
 The time cannot be turn back...I wish it could because a lot of things have done to me and it really hurt deep inside of me..People started to blame me when the evidence is right in front is wrong...I felt betrayed,used and lied...I had just experience this of what happen the previous event...No one back me up Not a single soul dare to stand for me...I felt so hurt...What is done cannot be undone and i must move on no matter what...It might take some time but a little support will do such things...My happiness is vanish forever, I once laugh,smile but now its all over i really give up on the people here...All the things i done is not appreciated...How many efforts I put in and sacrifice my free time and yet is not appreciated...I felt that whatever I do I wont be appreciated by those people...People won't stand for me,help me,support me,shown a little care all they do is SHOUT!Who do they really think they are.....They shall get the taste of their own medicine within this month!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007 @ 4:43 PM
♥ Things Weren't meant to be
 Are things meant to be this way?People,Humans,Living Things of all kinds.They are now all suffering just because of me...What I did was wrong?Or was it my way to show what I felt on that day.The day of a Rain-Windy morning made me summon all my energy I have.I was not happy I was not satisfied.Are fate made us to be like this?We are the protector of the world.I believe although we are not the same we could still work together but still why they wouldn't believe me.I want people to believe me some people think I am joking and these word are meaningless...Life is just meaningless for me too meaningless..People who don't believe in what you say...The person who you trust the most i really give up on them even though they are my only friends left.....Well This is the end...
Monday, September 10, 2007 @ 8:26 PM
♥ A Little effort...
 I try my best to make my friends do the best they can but i really did not care what happen to me from scolding,punishments.As long as my friends did not get any of the scolding i will try to defend up for them as long as I can...I have lost a lot of friends these days and this is one way to treasure the one I have right now...In the future I might not even have anyone to talk to but friends I knew that it is important in our life...I try my best not to be alone,trying to open up myself to people but some of them just don't really understand me...They don't even understand the problem..my personal problem...These scolding are just words said by humans it doesnt really affect me somehow but as a human we have emotions we might be offended one way or another...Friends is what I've left now and i will not lost anymore of them.....
Sunday, September 9, 2007 @ 11:03 AM
♥ Deja Vu...
 The time has come for us to meet again...Again it felt so same like before but not anymore..Once thing has been done it cant be undone...No matter how hard we try to change the matter..Could we really be the one to fix things back as they were before?What if fate has brought it to be like that?No one could change fate....All things are the same people,attitude,work,life its just the same.Same as always but once you die there will not be a repeat of your life...It will be a different world;a different feeling and a different life..More suffering to be face for all our bad deeds in this world.We are all servants...but some may not know it because they are rich...Greed will forget our loved one...All we must do is not to be greedy and show some concern to them..Or they will end up killing themselves...Would you like that to happen?Would you like to see your loved one die in front of your eyes.....Death maybe the answer for everything to most people.....
Friday, September 7, 2007 @ 3:30 PM
♥ A Fake Smile
 People may see I am putting up a smile or laugh...Is it a real smile or fake one...No one can reach deep inside of me to know my true feelings.Every time a different things had been spoken it may affect someone life.People may not know it because they just like to fool around.Did not realize people feeling....It's better to be alone because you would not get hurt by the things people say around you every day of your life.Some may bare the words and some may not...Am i being true to my friends of my emotions or not?Or do they believe that every thing they see with their eyes they believe. It quite hard to believe one another because a smile doesn't show true happiness.For me happy could symbolize anything to me either sad,alone,hurt,betrayed,insulted. In this world they are no perfect and ever-lasting happiness only a memory could help us remember the memorable moment with our closed one...A fake smile is what i put up everyday of my daily life...I will always try my best to make my friends think I'm happy/laughing all the way everyday till the end of the world.....
Wednesday, September 5, 2007 @ 9:44 AM
♥ It's So Painful
 Every Night,Its so painful to remember all my sad memories coming inside my mind.I have lost a lot of my friends..Will they forgive me or not...I regret most of my tasks here and sometimes i feel like the time is up for me....It feel like every blade is piercing down every part of me..I hope that i could make up for all my broken-promises..I just hope they give me a second chance to be away from this misery.A lot of internal injuries for me is okay i guess..I just have to bare it on until the world.....
Monday, September 3, 2007 @ 3:33 PM
♥ Is there still hope
 Are there hope for this world to be save?After seeing alot of terrible things happen to this world,I wondered will all of us be saved?Do friends forgive and forget even though its such a pain suffering for them?Friends suffer and will forgive?Are we create like that?Although Friends do not like to see one another suffer they would forgive...What if friends forgive for the wrong reason...Thats a huge mistake...A really huge one....Will friends understand each other feelings?Will they comfort them when one of them feel sad?Will they really care in them?I wonder this question to myself each time i saw a tears from the sky drop down..No matter when I'm Sad or Happy...
Sunday, September 2, 2007 @ 10:53 AM
♥ I tried my best
 I have been frustrated for reaching a high note in some of the pieces although i could not reach it people encourage me to reach it...I couldnt believe their words..Could i really reach the note or not...Most of the people in my section are depending on me since some people are not there....We have a major thing to practice with one another so i need to try my best..Do i need to put in more effort or just leave?!
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Profile
Name: Tirmuzi;
Nickname: Takuya;
Birthday: 29 September;
Horoscope: Libra
Location: Singapore;
School: SGSS Pri(1998-2004)Sec(2005-2010).
Temasek Polytechnic
MSN: takuyakanbara29@hotmail.com
I'm someone who is
Cheerful;
Easy-Going;
Caring;
Loyal;
Gullible;
Understanding;
Supportive
Warm-Hearted
Friendly
Emo at times
Forgiving
Humble
Likes
Milkshakes;
Cotton Candy
VitaSoy;
To Be Alone;
Day-Dreaming;
Relaxing;
Listening to Music
Fruits
SoyaBean
Dutch Lady Milk
Wishes
Remember my Childhood;
Dreams
To do:
Grow Fat [Priority]
Die
JukeBox
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